Okay dokey, here it goes! My emotions are going up and down and I know it has a mixture of things. My period is coming and my body is chaanging, and a week ago today my friend Christine died from cancer. Sleep has been hard to find at a decent hour of the evening so I can get up at 6:30 a.m. and get ready to for school. I have been able to function at school, but my mind has been sidetracked on the death of my friend Christine. I am actually surprised that I am even able to get up at 6:30 a.m. and be ready for school by 7 a.m. and get to the bus by 7:30 a.m. and be at school by 7:45 – 8 a.m. in the morninig and functioning at a rate of success. I have been successful despite the amount of sleep I have had this far. I talked to my doctor’s nurse today and my doctor has given me a litle help to get a good nigiht’s rest tonight.. Even after 11 p.m. on school nights, I am yet wide awake and I have goten my second wind that sometimes I find myself unable to get to sleep until after 1 a.m. and I need to be up by 6:30 a.m.. I had taken the day off of school today and I even heard my alarm go off at 6:0 a.m. but I was too LAZY to push the button to shut it off. It is not the ordinary electric alarm clock that would go off until you shut it off but one of those clocks that is made for visually handicapped that shuts itself off after ten warnings. I had awakened to the sun shining at 7:45 a.m. which was a nice sleep in but I am not used to it right now with school in session.
I have been in and out of mood shifts here. I HATE it with a passion!!! It is like this a shift here and a shift there, and everywhere a shift shift. NOT “SMILING” Not laughing out loud right now. Tears are forming in my eyes off and on. I HATE mood swings. I HATE PMS too! But in the end, I know I will be okay. I always am.