What’s On My Mind Tonight at This Time?

It is after midnight and I cannot go to bed without writing what is pressing so hard on my mind at this moment. As a matter of fact, I have been wanting to write about this since a week ago Thursday when my mind was made up to walk away from a friendship relatioonship between me and this one friend I have known for about three years. It does pain my hear to have done this but if I didn’t walk away, I would have been walking on eggshells and my emotions would be al messed up, and honestly walking on eggshells is not needed. I have a wonderful personal life that involves schooling, good neighbors and friends, and family. My personal life is filled with chaos often enough that getting rid of some chaotic issues would help a lot.

I had to walk away from a friendship because of maturity and hehavior that I do not condone. In fact, I did not ever grow up with immaturity and behavior I have personally experienced with this specific friend I had to walk away from. Do I feel guilty walking away from this friend? No, but it did pain my heart to make such a very important decision. I do not like my friends being hurt by people who claim to be friends over and over and over again. Yes, I have very good friends who have been hurt over and over by this one person I had to walk away from. As a matter of fact, I have been hurt over and over and over again by this person to the point that tears have been shed and words have been exhanged, and we made up over and over again. No matter how many times our friendship was mended, the hurt happened all over again and I just couldn’t take it anymore so I walked away from a friendship that just was not a friendship at all in the real world. My so-called friend has a lot of growing up and behavior issues to work on before I can ever trust this person again. This trust has been misplaced and totally lost waiting to be found again some other place by some other two people.

I need to go to bed – I will write more later.