I did get a little nap but I was awakened by my sound spa alarm this morning at 7 am and laid in bed for a few more minutes before taking my morning medications and then decided to stay up for a while. If a nap is needed this afternoon, I will take one since I do not have to go to go to work today – no more work for the rest of the week at this time unless I hear from my bosses.
Anyway…
I do have to admit that I have been thinking about certain family members who I no longer have any communication with because those certain family members have decided to disown me, my parents in AR, and my parents in NM. My parents in NM have not had any communication with certain family members for the longest time now whereas I have as well as my sister and my AR parents were disowned about 3 years ago or so. The last time I saw certain family members was during a family get together during Thanksgiving and shortly after that, all of us were disowned and no communication ever since. Do I cry at night or anytime when it comes to certain family members? No, but I do wonder about them from time and GLAD they are NOT in my life anymore. I am feel FREE from them now and happy without them in my world/life. If they try to crawl back into my life, they will be denied the opportunity – not welcome in my life ever again. They may be thought of from time to time but they are dead to me for good. It is very sad indeed but there is nothing I can do for certain family members anymore but pray for certain family members daily. I do personally wish that I did not even think about them from time to time either because when I do, the fact that I always did something wrong during my visits to PA come to the front of my mind full force. It is sad! That is why I feel I am not busy enough sometimes. That is why I am on Facebook all the time several times a day or all day when I am not working or at work or busy with other things. I am GLAD to have a job now I can go to once or twice a week now to keep me busy. My PA family is dead to me for good now. They will not be able to wiggle themselves back into my life anymore after today…I won’t allow it. They are very sick people.
More later…
