Please Understand Me

Another day has come and gone by very quickly today.  It is a little after 9 PM on a Thursday night and. Usually I am already in bed getting ready to go to sleep, but that is not so tonight.  Even though another day has come and soon I will be heading to bed for the night, I am so happy to find that today was much better than yesterday although I am still feeling a little hormonal due to the “woman thing”.  At my age, I do have to say I am glad I still deal with some of the aspects of the “woman thing”, but my emotional outbursts and thoughts need to find better avenues from this day forward.  I still cannot come up with the right words to express what happened yesterday because some words were said that should not have been said. I swear up when my emotions and thoughts go berserk/haywire…however you want to put it.  When I swear, I know it is still me swearing up a storm, but honestly…the evil side of me comes out…the out of control me from so long ago who did not have any idea of what being a Christian was.  Oh…believe me, I do remember what was said, why I said what I said, and where my words were aimed at/for, and my heart would like to forget about it from this day forward because I know I will have more days like this in the future.  Not anymore, this week…please…I have something to hard to work on from this day forward.  I know God is not pleased with me right now.  In the meantime, I will be back sometime tomorrow before Sabbath begins…hopefully…it is in the plans in my mind now.  Today my mom celebrated her 74^th birthday even though she did not really celebrate…I acknowledged it to her a couple of times today.  She told me that her birthday was just another day.  As we get older, I guess certain occasions do blur in our lives as another day from time to time.