Dear Frieinds of DD

Dear Friends,

I would like to say thank you for those who put Chrstine Kane-Gagne family in their prayers. It was most welcome and appreciated by the entire family. Prayers will always be welcome for the Kane-Gagne family forever. I talked to Christine’s husband Ken earlier today and we talked about Christine. She died peacefully, which put my heart in a better frame of mine. She has been very ill for a long time and the last two weeks of her life, she had been real sick with cancer. She did not take many phone calls then but she did have time with her kids, Mark and Ruth. Christine did not suffer. She faught to the end. she was a fighter and she never gave up. When it was her time to go, she did let go but she did not give up without a fight. She will be missed greatly by all her friends and myself. I will be talking about her a lot for a while so please bear with me for as long as it takes. A lot of fond memories have been made between me and Christine in the past twenty-five years. I will be attending a grieving group at our nearby hospice as soon as I can so the grieving will begin with help by sharing with others who Christine is like. Here is a good place to tell about her with others.

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SoftlyDreaming

I just wanted to say you are welcome in regards to the comment left at your diary. I feel that I have made friends at DD and you are one of them. I try not to be harsh to anyone but sometimes I can be but I was not harsh with you at all. What you are going through in your life is normal for a young girl. My brother and sister-in-law have an anniversary this Monday. My brother is a friend of mine indeed but we are very very close, LOL. You take care of yourself now and I love you as a friend always. Anytime you ask for advice or a comment at your diary, I will do my best in leaving advice and giving you comfort. I am a little stale at it, LOL. One time I had given advice to a friend and I got in trouble by this friend’s parent, LOL, and I thought it was the end of ou relationship when it wasn’t/ Since then, I have been VERY careful about giving out advice. i choose my words more carefully or I do not give advice out at all. Hang in there, kid! You can do it! I have faith you my dear friend SoftlyDreaming. You have a good weekend and we will get in touch again real soon and that is a promise worth keeping. Love you!

Love, Kristi

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A 12th Birthday

This summer I visited my brother and his family in Pennsylvania for a few days and had a great time. Ever since then I have been keeping in better contact with them more – once a month if not more. Today my oldest neice is 12 and she is going to have a birthday party today. On Monday, my brother and sister-in-law have an anniversary as well.



HAPPY BIRTHDAY, B!

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For Kaliko88 & SoftlyDreaming

I woulld like to thank you for your comments on yesterday’s entry. It really means a lot to me at this given time. Christine was one special friend indeed, and the memorial service I had for her in private was truly here. Being that the memorial service was in another state, Michigan and I live in Wisconsin, getting to it on time would have been difficult because I was in sch0ool all day and Michigan is an hour ahead in time. By the time I got home it was 4 p.m. and the memorial service had started. Christine was a fine woman indeed. She was a fariend to many and to me. Our friendship lasted a quarter of a century, and the memories will last a lifetime. Losing her to cancer was expected after she had found out that it was in her bones and such. Chru=istine held on as long as she could without giving out a fight. I have to give her credit where it is due there even though she is gone today. I miss her very much. I am glad, as hard as it may seem, Christine fight to cancer has ended and she is no pain any longer. Christine was a beautiful woman and I will be writing about her a lot in the mext few entries when I have time. I am usually not a writer in my journal on a Saturday because but I thought that this note was an exception to the entry written yesterday.

I have this teddy bear named Anna Elizabethfrom American Eagle in our city’s mall, I hug in memory of Christine. When I got that teddy bear a few years ago, it held a significaant time spent together and today it holds the love that Christine has given me all these wonderful years. Christine meant a lot to me for many fine years.

Again, thank you for your comments and replies to my entry yesterday, October 4, 2002. They really mean a lot to me.

Love, Kristi

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An Entry With Lots of Thought 2

My night on this Friday has finally drawn to a close and it is dark and time for bed soon. It is almost 9 p.m. Friday, Octoboer 4, 2002. Bed is soon to come. Yeah! A couple of hours ago I had to nurse a slight headache that was coming full force and now that is gone. YEAH! I hate headaches. Especially at night when you want to sleep and sometimes those headaches can be annoying by nagging.

I had gotten home from school at 2:45 p.m. this afternoon and noticed that the office at Teamster Manor was open. Nellie Mom, the manager of Teamster Manor, was feeling up to having the office open. Anyway, it was rent pick up day and someone was there picking up the rent. I had, not knowing if Nellie would have been able to be home from the hospital by that time, had sent my rent check in the “snail mail” Tuesday morning. I also was not sure if I would have been home on time when the rent was being picked up. LOL, the rent was being picked up.

Oh my, my lot of thoughts have been shortened! YAWN. Time for bed. Good night everyone!

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An Entry With Lots of Thoughts

I would have been writing yesterday but I was a little bit under the weather all day yesterday. It was not because I had the feeling of a cold coming on or the flu. It was because I was grieving over the loss of my friend Christine who passed away Tuesday, October 1, 2002, and I had learned about her death by calling and wanting to speak to her on Wednesday, October 2, 2002. When I had learned of the news of Christine’s passing, time seemed to stop for a few seconds as the news was being sunk in. I was shocked in hearing the news at first but an hour or so later, the news really made me cry. I knew that Christine was ill with cancer for a couple of years – it first began in her breasts and she had both breasts removed, and then the cancer came back into her bones and other places. The last time I saw her was in April at a benefit for Christine in Milton, Wisconsin. I had spoken to her a couple of times after that until my last call, which was Wednesday at 6 p.m., when the news of her death had been told to me because I had asked for Christine, and when her sister answered the phone she sounded like Christine. Not an odd coincidence whatsoever. When her sister told me who she was, name left out I asked if Christine was available. The sister asked who was calling and so I gave her my name and then she told me this:

“Kristi, I do not know how to put this because there is not an easy way to put it, but Christine passed away yesterday (Tuesday).”

Christine’s sister was right about it not being an easy way of putting the news of Christine’s death. She could have put it in other ways, but she did put it in the way I understood. I feel that Christine’s sister was very gentle and kind, just like Christine was.

The death of Christine did not really hit me until the shock was over with and I have been crying and tearing since then. Today is her memorial services which I will not be attending because I am in Wisconsin and the services is in Michigan and I do not drive. I cried a lot yesterday, which matched the dreary weather we have been having since Tuesday night late. It is still raining today but my tears have subsided enough to continue with my day and move knowledge of what I am doing. I am not walking in a total fog but things are still a little hazy here.

Other than Christine’s death affecting me, my week has gone on despite all that has happened. I went to my counseling appointment yesterday afternoon and talked about my friend dying. I could not concentrate on my homework at all yesterday and worked on it this morning when I got to school. Got it all done even I thought it was going to be impossible today. Handed it in today actually. I will be leaving here in ten or so minutes, yeah. Thank goodness it’s Friday. No homework to do this weekend!! I have a wedding to look forward to as a guest watching a wedding. I am excited about that at least. I am going to have fun.

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October 2nd is Going to Be Remembered Always

I know this is going to sound strange but it might make sense. On October 1, 1997, my grandma Myra Fox passed away from congestive heart failure, at our city’s hospital. My mom and I were with her when she passed away. She died at the age of 77 a day short of her 78th birhday. My grandma’s death will not be forgotten but her birthday will always be the significant day. I would rather remember a birthday than a death date, but with my grandma, it will be a mixture of both. If my grandma was still alive, she would have been 83 years old today. My mom and I have been celebrating Grandma’s birthday in our mind through memories of previous birthdays spent with Grandma. Grandma Fox has given me some fond memories on her birthday and other special occassions and days. Why I have my grandma’s birthday October 2nd such a significant thing in my life, I have no idea why. My grandma’s death on October 1, 1997 should be more significant than her birthday when her birthday can no longer be celebrated because is not physically here anymore. I think that remembering that Grandma’s birthday is a more postive thing than her a death which had the anniversary yesterday.

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Last Night

Last night I did not get on line for very long because we were expecting a storm throughout the night. I think now I know why I was having troubles sleeping last night! It was lightning most of the night. “YAWN” I am able to function but I am tired. Tomorrow is not going to be a school day. I am taking a brak from school until Friday. I saw lightning flash as I peared out every time I woke up. Emilee was a little skitterish all night long, but she is fine and loving today. I do not think it is going to stop raining and storming until Friday or so. YUCK!

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Update On Mom Nell

I am glad to report that Nellie Mom is home from the hospital now. She was discharged today and our friend G and his Mom Jan picked her up and brought her home today. i have not really spoken to her since she has been home but I did call and find her just getting in and going to bed. She sounded tired and out of it, but she is safe and home now, and that realy counts. She does not have to sleep another night in the hospital at this time.

Thank you so much for your prayers, for those who prayed for her recovery and her way back home. iT was most appreciated and very kind and loving. Thanks again everyone from the bottom my heart and Mom Nell’s. May God bless you and keep you safe and warm in his arms.

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A Quick Entry!

I am not going to be on long but I had to keep my promise as to writing in my journal later after getting home from school. It is 5:30 p.m. now and it is kind of rainy and thunderstorms are likely tonight. We already had a little bit of lightning and thunder this early afternoon. Mark had taken me grovery shopping at Woodman’s on the other side of town – the north side and as we were coming back I saw lightning light up a part of town nearby my apartment complex. Then, shortly after I got home, I had heard rumbles of thunder but not loud claps but thunder is yet coming tonight throughout the night. I hate to be on line or have my computer up and running, even asleep really, while it is storming outdoors. The sun has finally set for the night though.

In a while I am going to hop in the shower and allow the heat of the water hit my tired body and get cleaned up a bit. I need to wash my hair for tomorrow. Since I get up early Mondays and Wednesdays (6:30 a.m.), I do not take a shower or make excessive noise while other neighbors are still asleep or trying to. Our apartment complex here has real thin walls and noise does carry here. Sometimes, with the neighbor who is not able to hear well, i can hear her television on in her apartment as if it is out in the hallway and she is across the hall from me. The insolation must not be that good here.

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