Kristi Karnopp's Diary & Blog

I have a few minutes before my friend gets done with her class to go to lunch with her for me to write some more entry. Today has been a great day as I have mentioned in the first entry. I am a little moody though because I am expecting my lovely little period in a few days. I hate my periods because they drive me into a mood shift I can not always understand yet I cope with. Thank goodness school has resumed for another semester so I can get my mind on school and not my problems and issues that drive me to be moody. Right now it is kind of quiet where I am at and it is very relaxing that I am about to fall asleep here sitting at the computer I am using at school. I might as well grab my pillow and a blankie to go to bed for a while, LOL That would look very funny at school believe it or not. Maybe I should go to the daycare room and take a nap with the day care kids, LOL No big deal. I will be home from school a little after 3 p.m. today since I will be riding the bus home this afternoon. I need the exercise anyway.

My day is not yet over and it is already throwing me into that loop, “What A Day” mode. It has been great and I wish for this day NOT to end at all. It has been a great day all day long. I really enjoy being at school. It is fun and it keeps me out of trouble, LOL. I have someone at school here who always tells me that I am trouble but she is only joking, thankfully. Well, anyway, you can read about my school days at my school diary under the name of kristimary, okay? I even write about school stuff even if I am not at school any particular day or moment even. If it relates to school, not like this entry, it will be found at my school journal.

My Labor Day started with waking up to a thunderstorm at 8 a.m. or so. I thought that they might cancel the parade at 1 p.m. if it did not give up before then. When I had awakened, I was looking forward to my afternoon at the Labor Day parade and then at the Labor Day Fest just behind our A&W Rootbeer stand down the street. I did not want to get a call from one of the IDS (Independent Disabilities Services) caseworkers saying that the parade was cancelled, so I really hoped that the rain would stop and the sun would shine before the parade would begin and end and then I would enjoy myself at the Labor Day Fest for a little bit before being brought home for the day. I would have been greaetly disappointment if the Labor Day Parade was cancelled as well as our plans to go to the Labor Day fest. I am not a good person as far as plans being cancelled. Anyway, my hope of having the thunderstorms end before the prarade dod hapen and the parade and the Labor Day Fest was not cancelled, and I went with four other IDS consumers and a caseworker (even though I am not a consumer of the IDS program) and we all had fun. In fact, my man friend Mike was with us which made the day brighter. He and his roommate (my ex-boyfriend) had just gotten back from vacation out of state and seeing Mike was a pleasure.

I would have written an entry or two yesterday but we were stormed out and I was not going to be on my computer when it was lightning. The storm seemed far away enough but I was not going to risk it and lose my computer. When i got home from the Labor Day Parade and Fest, I did get on line for only a few minutes to get all my e-mail, if I had any, which I had no important e-mail to reply to, LOL Now that I have started schopl, my incoming e-mails have been fewer and fewer. No big dea;. I have been fairly busy with school once it started on August 26, 2002. I was going to write an entry later in the day, but I was getting tired early and just wanted to go to bed. At first, as long as i had been on my computer it was almost a waste of time just to be on it for under an hour anyway realy. Before I retired for the night, to later wake up to a new school day, I had seen that the weather was expecting a possible thunderstorm in Wisconsin but I have no idea if it did get to us last night because I had fallen asleep while watching Matlock and my television was off when I had awakened to run to the bathroom in the middle of the night.

I have gotten home from school a little before 1 p.m. and I woke up from a two hour nap. I had fallen asleep watching the two hours of Murder, She Wrote program. I must have been tired… I guess getting up before 6 a.m. or 7 a.m. really make tired so early in the afternoon. My body is not yet, but gettung there, accustomed to the time change and retuirning back to school. I do, however, have high energy right away in the morning and breakfast is definitely not passed anymore. I find my mind is more fueled when I eat breakfast other than it is the biggest part of your day to get started.

I just noticed, with the year going by really quick, that 9-11 is coming up in a few days now. A year since the Attack on America has passed already. I know the “Attack on America” has affected people in many ways and many of them have not been thinking about it because it disrupts their lives. I still remember what I was doing on 9-11-01 and I will NOT forget that day for as long as this mind works. A lot of “things” have happened since 9-11 and I hear about things all the time that regard to people trying to terrorize other people, hijacking(s), and a war is still going on. America will not give up! YES!!!!

It is time for me to go. I am still tired, LOL and I have other things to do on line.

It is going on 9 p.m. here for September 1 and I just realized that time does not have any value right now. Here I thought it was August 31st all day long that the world seemed to be going so fast…and I went shopping for food this morning with my friend Mark for the month of September! See, time does not mean anything here whatsoever. LOL At least I got an entry in for today even though it is late and I did not get to it sooner. Boy is my day really strange. Just a bit ago I was feeling a pressure in my head fighting the fight of knowing that love is here when my mind was trying to tell me differently. That is Satan decieving you that’s for sure. After such a fight, a fight that should have not lasted a few minutes but a second, I feel so tired and ready for bed. Earlier today, at 1 p.m. my friend Catie had come up to watch a movie with me. We watched “A Beautiful Mind” on PPV (Pay Per View) and it was such a good movie. I loved it. Was it based on a true story?

I HATE those hormone changes. I do not always feel chipper or cheerful. Right noow with the changes beginning to happen because my period is coming in a few days, the tears just want to burst through for no reason whatsoever. It is kind of scary because I am not sure if I am sane ir going insane sometimes, and I am noot sure if I need to take any Buspar for the moodiness I constantly feel during the hirminal changes. I get confused a lot during the hormonal changes as well as sensitive. I can be insensitive as well to be very honest with you. Life is not always a bowl of ripe cherries, is it? Life is a mystery all the time believe me.

I did not have to go to school today so I stayed home all day long. I did not leave my apartment at all and I did not even get dressed for the day. I thought, since I was not going anywhere, why bother getting dressed. If something did get me out of the apartment, I could get dressed in seconds and be ready to go. It has been quiet after my cleaning lady “R” left before noon. She had come earlier than 11 a.m.. Because I did not have to go to school today, I slept in until 8:30 a.m. again! I hate that when that happens but oh well…that’s life. My day has not at all been boring whatsoever. It has been relaxing and fun, and quiet all at one time. Really not a whole lot really happened today except getting Algebra homework done before tomorrow’s class.

It is a little after 9 p.m.. My day is now over. TIme for bed actually. I can not keep my eye open much longer now. It has been a very good day all day long. Quite a few people have made my day go well and smoothly to be very honest with you. To top it off, I am going ot say good nght now and I will be home all day tomorrow so I “try” to find time to write something tomorrow. I do have my cleaning lady coming tomorrow at 11 a.m. or so and then I will be doing some school work and studying. Right now, to be very honest with you, I was going to study tonight but I only got so far as to getting my school bag out of the kitchen into the livingroom and opening the bag to expose the books and papers in it to be reviewed. Emilee is sleeping on the back of the recliner, which I should be doing as well…not sleeping on the bakc of the recliner anyway but be getting into bed for the night. I can barely keep these eyes open really anyway. The television is on the Court TV channel with the program The System airing and I am not really paying attention to it because I am on line writing this entry and what is being discussed tonight is beyond my understanding anyway because I am so tired now from my big, long day. I will be back tomorrow. Bye for now

I got rid of my previous phone that was from Ameritech and got oa phone with caller ID with it. It is a Wisconsin Bell brand phone. I like it but it can wake up the dead! LOL It is gray and it is smaller than any other phone I have ever had in the past. Even the base is smaller than what I am used to seeing. Technology is getting more compact isn’t it? 🙂 Now, being a little after 8:30 p.m., I think my phone is done being used tonight but I can not be too sure. LOL I am not expecting any more phone calls tonight. Hopefully. It is almost time for me to go to bed anyway because I do have school tomorrow.

I was looking forward to going back to schoolall summer long and yesterday was the big day I was looking forward to. I am feeling now, with school and classes to look forward to on a daily basis, I am getting back on track. No more sitting around the house all day long watching television, sleeping, staying in pajamas all day long all week long, reading, and beoing bored to death. Plans to go to school daily is a great feeling. I am away from my apartment for a few hours and then I can come home and relax awhile before getting at my studies. I purposely am trying to get to my studies at school than my studies at home are more at ease than a neccessity. I want to be able to relax and give time to Emilee who is home all day without me around for so many hours. I am feeling less depressed now that i have school to look forward to on a daily basis.