Friday

No Dialysis Today Due to Weather

I stayed home because the weather advisory was bad outside. My caregivers would no have made it to my place by 3 PM because of the snowstorm we were having today. Weather advisory is until noon Saturday Sabbath afternoon. I was planning on going to church on Zoom, but it depends on my mood in feeling like crap right now emotionally and I am exhausted from little to no sleep lately. My Seroquel is doing bad things. I have gotten to point that I can’t trust Mercy Health period. I don’t want Dr. Anjum to be my doctor anymore. I wand to leave Mercy all the way and stick with UW Hospital and Clinics and SSM Health Services—even counseling. I feel I need to say goodbye to. It’s not my day or night right now period! Ugh or my goodness!! What can I do for myself? I feel helpless!!t

Deb has been here from 7:30 AM to 9:30 AM. Due to weather, Jackie won’t be here today. Damn it! This is going to be a horrible weekend! No one seems to understand me at this time when my brain goes into hyper anxiety mode and overthinks things causing me to think negatively. It is beginning tonight. I  am not in the best frame of mind right now. More tomorrow.