Okay, I feel bad for Jackie’s friend for losing her dad the other day or earlier this morning, but when Jackie goes away to help her friend during the time she is supposed to work with/for me makes me feel like shit, and to me it looks like she does not want to work with/for me. Jackie runs in a rush to get out of my home just to go help others, and I don’t like it at all. It hurts me and I wish her not to be around at all because my mood about her changes to the point I wish her out of my life. Now the damn waiting game is going to be happening and I have hated the waiting game with her ever since she has worked with me. When she acts like she doesn’t want to be here, why bother coming at all. Ugh!
Today, my non-dialysis day, I don’t mind lying on the bed and watch Midsomer Murders on Roku Live TV channel 522 or Unsolved Mysteries on channel 520, or The Resident on Netflix. Jackie got me on that show. It was on for a few years. I’m also into Chicago Med, Chicago Fire, and Chicago PD. I like S. Apatha Merkerson on Law & Order and Chicago Med a lot.
Well, the weekend is coming up and I have dialysis in the morning. I don’t want to go because I have been very frustrated with the idea of getting my weight back down to 84 kilos which makes 185.1 pounds if you want to be technically correct like I am with my numbers these days. Yeah, it is just downright uncomfortable to be close to 190 pounds these days when I’m not as active as I once was. In fact, although I am not as bedridden like I was a year ago, I am in bed a lot these days. Cannot wait for warmer weather so I get outside more with my caregivers during the day they are here … but hopefully will get to 84 kilos soon!
Her friend’s dad died in his aleep