May 23rd, 2024, Appointments
A few days have passed now since I last wrote in my diary/blog. I have had another counseling appointment yesterday on May 23rd as well as a med check with Joeylynn at Mercy Options at 10 AM. Then I had my appointment with Deb J at Mercy Options at 11 am. It was two hours of my day I cannot get back — seriously. Deb wants me to write a letter to my dad for our next counseling session in two weeks. My writing of feelings DO NOT come easily in my life, and yet, I still need to apologize to Dad even though I did speak the truth to my dad who always gets angry with me and brings up my negative happenings that make me so moody and it hurts me by breaking my heart. Holy cats, how in the world am I going to come up with my words now?! Oh no, it’s not an easy project! Do not get me wrong about writing, though… I love to write, but when my feelings are neutral and worry-free, writing my feelings is NOT easy whatsoever…
As for my medication is concerned, my primary doctor Dr. Christopher Taylor has changed my Prozac dosage of 10 mg to 20 mg in the morning, and Mercy Options has it updated in my records with Joeylynn and Deb J. I know several people with the name Deb, Julie, and Jackie in my life through the years.
Dialysis Update
I will not argue on how dialysis has been going these days. I am between 195-205 pounds depending on my fluid and sodium intake is per non-dialysis days. In the winter months in Garden Court was not easy because heat rises, and I am on the third floor. I feel for the tenants who live on floors 4-7 because heat rises and being on the 3rd floor, it gets dry up here in winter. I rarely turn the heat up or on in my place. I am NOT drinking enough although I can only drink 34 ounces of water in a day. I guess I can drink a little more, so I do not get dehydrated. I think I am dehydrated because when the dialysis machine is cleaning my blood it is also pulling out fluid and toxins. I suck on ice cubes as well and drink juices and an occasional 7Up or Sprite. The juice I love to drink is cranberry juice with a flavor like raspberry or blueberry, or apple.
What I Thought this Week…
I thought I had a UTI, but today I realized it is not a UTI. My area was a little dirty from bowel mess towards the front. With Deb washing my hair and giving me my Friday bath, I am now clean in back and front, and it feels better. Even with kidney disease, my bladder can cease to function properly at times, and I have been dealing with some stress these days and weeks. I will be okay. My urine is clear yellow. Sometimes I get poop in the front. No UTI after all. My urine is clean.
