Counseling
I am finding counseling very helpful at Mercy Options. I like going there even though my ride situation was was all screwed up today! With counseling being top priority on appointment days now. My counselor gets into the nit and grit of my depression and anxiety now. I really like Deb J. She’s pretty cool and I believe she is a Godsend kind of gal. She knows her job. At Crossroads, I found it not helpful so when the counselor canceled my appointment, I decided to never go back there and tell others they should go there. When my appointment was canceled, it was canceled without explanation and I found that suspicious because he said he was going to help me, but I was there three times at that point. It actually pissed me off and I no longer recommend going Theda anymore. Jackie’s opinion didn’t matter to me, but I do have to say her opinion did piss me off as well. If Deb says one thing wrong in my sessions and Jackie is with me because I want her there, her opinion of the place will be negative as well. I need help with my problems people, and I need to feel safe. I was NOT safe at Crossroads for damn sure.
Father’s Day is Coming
I am very serious about my apology to my dad now so Jackie got a Father’s Day card and wrote a sorry note in it and it with my coasters I bought for Dad and Sandy, and today I got text from dad thanking me for the coasters and card. He likes the coasters and instead of using them, he and Sandy have displayed them for show instead. Silly dad, lol. I guess I got something they appreciate.
Now remember, my dad was not going to talk to me until I apologized to him for saying something he did not like. Today’s text was a month with of no communication. I only texted on Sandy’s and Lon’s birthdays on May 21st and 22nd to wish them happy birthday, and Sandy said thank you. No more texts after that until today. His silence was not very comfortable to me at all either. It made it more difficult for me to trust him fully and the memories of him being this way frightened me. I was actually really afraid and upset with him for not wanting to talk to me until I apologized and that really hurt me so much. Trust with him has been knocked down quite are notched recently. He will continue to hurt me by bringing up the past and last time he mentioned that Mom did not want custody of Greg and I anymore had hit me so hard that I looked at my babies that same night and said I am not going to abandon them like I felt abandoned by my mom since I was 12 years old. No fucking wonder I am depressed at times and I fight tooth and nail for my babies although they have been cats from 1990 on to this very day. No wonder I do not take kindly to using my Magic as a pawn when I was in nursing homes in 2022. Now I have Magic and Millie and I love them both even though Millie is not liking to be touched or petted. She is my scaredy cat now. I still love her though. She keeps Magic occupied with play while I’m gone to dialysis or other important appointments out of the building.
Recertification Time
Other than my counseling appointment at 2 PM to 3 PM, if was time for recertification here at Garden Court. I have no idea as to why it is done so early in the springtime and not done in September baffles me because while at Burbank Plaza Kathie R did it one to two months before the month I moved in and I moved in there in March 1992 I believe. I lived at Burbank Plaza/Teamster Manor for several years. I moved from 308 to 110 while living there. Moving to Garden Court at the time in 2020 was the happiest time of my entire life as I had a new lease on life and my illnesses that hospitalized me in 2022 twice broke my happiness and caused my living at Garden Court an unhappy life. I have been living in a building that has a lot of problems. The property management that runs this place is driving this place downward. This place is becoming a horrible place to live. Now I have an application to Riverview Heights and waiting to move in there. I hope, anyway!
