Clearing Things Up
What happened yesterday in the hallway has been cleared up this morning. My ears are hurting, and I feel yucky. I think I am catching a cold from change of weather temperatures. My legs and feet, affected with cerebral palsy since I was born, do not work and they were not cooperating with me. I felt warm and my mouth was dry, and my legs would not move, I slid to the floor because I felt like I was falling off my new walker seat. Jackie was the one who said out loud for my neighbors in the lobby to hear that she knows what I am thinking, NO ONE KNOWS WHAT I’M THINKING! She said I slid to the floor on purpose, and NO I DIDN’T DO IT ON PURPOSE! Heck, no!
Not My Brain Now
All night long, my brain was screaming at me, and I was doing was not fine. I told Jackie she hurt my feelings, and I did not appreciate what she said. I have a dialysis treatment today, and my ears are bugging me, and they kept me awake all night plus my manic state was fighting with me all night. My manic side of me screams out hatred and I think people do not care. I get scared that I will not live at home with my babies anymore. My babies are my 3 ½ year old cat Magic, and my 6-month-old kitty Millie. I just got her in December 2023 on the 9th when Jackie and Debbie went the humane society to find a sister for Magic. With me being a two cat household mommy now, I am definitely okay with it. I never expected it.m, though. Magic needed a sister, too.
When I go into my negative mood of thoughts, this world is cruel. Who wants to be in a cruel world? I surely wouldn’t. I see how cruel people can be in real life, but more so on TV. I read about how cruel people can be as Satan takes over in their lives in murder, killing, and maiming other people and animals alike. If I could, my home would be filled with dogs, cats, and birds who have been abandoned and damaged in some way and survived their ordeal. I love wild and domestic animals.
Dialysis Update
Dialysis went okay. The nurse and technician put Cathflo in my catheter at the beginning of my treatment today because of some common clotting in the venous line. The line would not pull at all. After 30 minutes, the line pulled beautifully, and dialysis continued on until 2:30 PM. The weekend has arrived! I will be out of here very soon—15 to 30 minutes my weekend will begin.
