Winter Storm Today
We have had another storm during the night. This time it was an ice storm, snow, and sleet. I hate this kind of storm in the winter. Although, I canceled and rescheduled my nail appointment, I did not cancel my counseling appointment. I could not even think of canceling unless my caregivers said to do so. I am glad that I didn’t have to cancel my appointment for counseling!
Counseling
I am at Mercy Options now for counseling. Today I had my second session. My counselor is named Deb. I can another Deb to my list of Deb names now, lol. We finished my assessment from three weeks ago, and my next appointment is February 6th. A lot of emotions have been going on and I really do have something mental going on these days, and mental illness runs in my family on both sides. My Grandpa Clarence and Grandpa Karnopp both had Alzheimer’s disease in their lives. Scary! I am being weaned off of Seroquel because it hasn’t worked for me. The weight that I took off in the past 2 years now has been found. I am back to 186 pounds because in one month, Seroquel has put it back on. My primary doctor Dr. Taylor has me weaning off Seroquel for 14 days and put me Prozac for my depression. I am finally getting some sleep for the first time in very long time. I don’t remember my last good sleep. It has been a while—in the past year.
Even though I do not do New Year resolutions in the New Year anymore because I never follow through, I am conscious of my weight because of the kidney transplant and disease. My kidney lasted 31 years and I have been on dialysis since 2019. I go again tomorrow at 11:45 AM. Deb, my counselor will be working on some things. Mercy Options is the right place for me at this time even though I am having troubles with MercyHealth right now, and I will be filing some complaints in the near future. Dr. Taylor is at SSM Health, and I am transferring to SSM Health for my medical care once I am lined up with nephrologist there. Yes, I will be losing Dr. Anjum in the future. Jackie and I are not happy with Mercy Health. I will be sad for a while because I am leaving the only doctor I like at Mercy, my nephrologist. I have to do it, though. I have some complaints about the dialysis team/clinic as well. Mercy dialysis team and clinic may not like me after this, but I have to do what is necessary to be happy, and I’m not happy with Mercy Health. I don’t want to sue, but it’s possible I might. My mom is not happy with Mercy Health is areas either. Jackie lost her husband 9 days after she was told by Mercy Health to take her husband home to die when they would not let Jackie advocate for him to have an ankle and foot removed because it became black and blue from cancer. He died of cancer. She became my caregiver in 2022, the year I contracted Covid, got a hematoma, and ended up in nursing homes and AMA from St. Elizabeth’s Nursing Home on November 14, 2022, because Dr. Jennifer Hussli would not allow me to have a Hoyer lift at home, so the nurses at the nursing home ordered me one for the home, and I have been home since. Dr. Hussli said having a Hoyer lift at home is unsafe according to her, but nurses use one all the time for people who need them in the home. Caregivers can be single operators, but the nurses in homes would operate the lift together. Does that make sense? It is a rule in nursing homes that two nurses operate a Hoyer lift. It makes sense for me. Jackie, Julie M, and Deb learned to operate the Hoyer lift. Jackie was working for another company at the time while I was in the hospital and nursing homes, but she was let go because a client had lied about her sleeping in her spare room. An awful lie got Jackie fired! I guess some people are just not so nice. Jackie never slept in the client’s bedroom! Now, I allow Jackie to rest while working for me. So, I have some work to do for counseling therapy. I am looking forward to it to some point. I, personally think, why express my feeling to a stranger?
Weather Forecast Seen by Me
It is after my appointment this afternoon when I feel the snow hitting my face. Yep, I was out for two to three minutes out while it was snowing. The prettiness is being taken over by the ice that has turned into a slushy mess because the temperatures have been a 30+ record this week. Driving my power chair in the slushy snow really drives me into a state of mind that is negative energy in my head. I haven’t liked winter for a few years now. At my age of 54, I go out when I need to these days, and canceling my nail appointment was worth it. I will not drive my power chair out in crummy wintry weather. Although I have to wait for the days of spring to arrive, I can’t wait until winter is finally over. This year’s winter has been the worst winter I have lived in my life this far. I hate this winter.
