I can’t tell you when my day has started. I am still in bed waiting for Jackie to get here. She arrived by 10:05 AM. This is my first entry/journal of the day. I had my bathroom time on the toilet. By the time she here, I had to go poo.
Poo, Not Afraid to Say So……
When it comes to bowel movements, I am not afraid to say anything about it. It is a natural action we have on a daily to regular basis and I have them on a daily to regular basis these days. Sometimes I get plugged up in that department and it is very nerving and uncomfortable at times. I take a stool softener three times a week to keep my bowels soft when they get a little too hard and uncomfortable. My poo clogs the toilet at times, too! Ugh, that is horrible although I never had a overflowing toilet in the three years I lived at Garden Court this far!
Burbank Plaza Memories
With that said, however, I do remember when the neighbor above me, before her eviction, had her toilet overflow once when her boyfriend was there. It was a stinky mess that put a river in my apartment in my kitchen and bathroom. It left 4 inches of toilet water in my apartment that day! It was disgusting because it stunk. It was an embarrassment and humiliation to me as the neighbors laughed and taunted me about it after the neighbor was evicted because of her boyfriend. The neighbors became nasty when the neighbor got evicted because she was being nasty by taking things and purposefully dropping them between evening hours 6 PM until 2 PM. Other neighbors noticed what was happening and I didn’t have to say anything. The tenants who backed me up did not say anything bad about me, but those people who did say bad things about me were wanting me gone from the place. I did leave and now I am not happy at Garden Court now as well.
The Past Several Months
I will be very honest here. I have noticed a decline in my friendship with Julie M. I rarely text her now-a-days. It’s hard to say I love you or text Julie these days. Trust in Julie has been misplaced a long time ago when Jackie and Julie began working together and Debbie had some time off due to medical and treatment. The friendship between the two then has put a wedge between me and Julie. Both of them have said hurtful words to me that have not been forgotten in these months passed. Words that still linger from time to time that remind me that they will leave me feel left somewhere stranded without any help whatsoever. I want Julie out of my life at this point. She seems to be a wolf in sheep’s clothing waiting for the right time to make her attack to strike and kill. That is how I feel. Having such feelings about people makes me feel like shit. Please excuse my swearing, but it is truth I am feeling like shit lately.
When my caregivers talked to me o. February 5th, I felt was being ganged upon, so they did not get the answers they wanted or expected. That day, the trust between me, Julie and Jackie has gone down quite a bit. My trust in those two has been damaged. I have been talked down about lately and it sucks to be in their care even though Jackie is the best caregiver out there now. It’s her overbearing ways that need to be knocked down and out of her. I hate being silent now. I want my damn voice back, people! Yes, I am kind of pissed off! Things need to change! How to get things to change is in the works. I will have to write about it and share with my mom. I will be using Pages and not Word for this project. Working on it this week. Protecting it with a password too.
