While I lay in bed waiting for Debbie to arrive, I am doing my best at not panicking about her being 3 minutes late now. Ugh! I am going to be manic any minute now as my ears feel warm, but cool to the touch indicate anxiety is picking up in my body. Ahh, 8:20 AM, Debbie’s here! Whew!
Good morning or at least it was before I get a message from Debbie that she sent saying she will not be here until 8:15 AM. I am wanting her here sooner, but the darn snowstorm yesterday has caused the delay, and I have dialysis today for it is Wednesday (hump day it it is called), anx I have no control of the weather, and I have to go out in it today. I heard Friday is supposed to snow more. Debbie has to park in the garage down the street from here. Oh brother! Won’t see her until 8:15 AM? Not acceptable in my book bad weather, people! I don’t like winter weather much anymore. My body doesn’t like the cold.
Anyway, my day has begun at 7 AM today. If I did not text Debbie, I would not have understood. Her text at 6:18 AM was not see. Until 7:38 AM when I texted her asking when she will be here. Uugghh! What a start of my day.
Kitty Update
I will never forget the day I became an adopted mom to my little boy Magic Salem Victor Kitty in 2020, AND I WONT FORGET THE DAY, A MONTH AGO I BECAME A MOM TO ANOTHER KITTY, a girl named Millie Rose Blossom. It was a surprise to me at first when Jackie and Debbie came home with her on December 9, 2023! What a Christmas present to myself as I paid for her adoption and chip. What a cat she is at 6 months of age now.
Millie Rose Blossom and I have meals together every morning and once in a while evenings. Yes, she eats with me, and she loves food. Don’t worry because I know what is toxic to dogs and cats. I am experienced with two cats before Magic Salem Victor. He got into raisins at 5 months and spent the night at the animal hospital in 2020. He’s my baby boy and always will be. It gets quiet with those two all the time, but I don’t worry as Millie can defend herself from Magic’s strong hold at times when he is rough with her. I just wish they would not use my living room and bedroom furniture as their jungle gym, please? Thank you so much!! LOL, but I love them both equally. I just have one cat who loves people food, and I don’t mind sharing my meals with Millie. She lived on the city streets before coming here from the animal shelter in the city. The shelter made a big mistake when they deemed her a feral cat and clipped her ear and were going to put her back on the streets and people would know she is wild and feral. She is just shy and skittish. Now that she has a home with me, she won’t let you catch her or pet her at times. She has a house of rooms to explore and play in. Smart girl with britches of lots of toys, and a big brother Magic who loves her more each day. She’s my baby girl now!
Winter Snow
Welcome to winter in Wisconsin, people! We have our first snowstorm today. Caregivers came and went today. Tomorrow they will return and get me ready for dialysis for 2 hours and 45 minutes, and I will be gone for 4 hours because I have to wait for my ride for about a half hour then it takes about another 15 to 20 minutes to get back to where my ride waits for me to take me back home.
Good Night
Its time to say goodbye for the night. It may not be 10 PM yet, but I have not slept well lately at night. Resting in bed for the day has helped a little bit. My med Seroquel is kicking my butt hard at times when I take it and it is not helping me at all anyway. I am not going back to Dr. Boateng anymore, so I canceled my appointment with her for a January 25, 2024. I have a doctor at SSM Health now tans Dr. Anjum is the only doctor I trust at Mercy now anyway. The doctors at Mercy ate not taking new patients anymore. That’s very frustrating now-a-days. Anyway, heading to bed now and resting did the night. I have dialysis tomorrow morning and afternoon. ‘Yawn’ and good night, peeps. . .
In Wisconsin we are dealing with our first winter snowstorm on this day! My caregivers came and went so fast that I have the rest of the afternoon and evening to myself since 1 PM. Both, Debbie and Jackie have been here and gone already so they are safe in their homes as well as me. Spectrum internet has warned all members that if there is internet outages, it’s due to the bad weather and they will be out in the neighborhood as soon as possible to fix any outages, and now closer to evening hours, the internet has been up and running.
Last week I have called Spectrum and stopped watching their app service on my Roku system as I now watch Roku Live Television. Now, having an Insignia Amazon Fire TV in my bedroom, I won’t miss my favorite movie or tv program because of the free apps out there for me to watch great and good shows. My parents in Milwaukee, Wisconsin do not have cable tv anymore, either. My phone bill is $30 to $60 a month, my internet costs only $25 now. My bills are not too high. Electric is $76 or a couple of dollars more. I don’t like paying bills, but that’s a part of being a grown woman in this day and age. I’m 53 years old here and in 2024 I will be 54 in July on the 3rd. I’m an adult with kid tendencies at times with my little girl voice still very active in me. Getting rid of cable tv was one of the best things I’ve done in my lifetime.
My Way
When it comes to my way of talking, sometimes I get off track in my thoughts and I get back on track again. Please forgive me. Thank you for understanding. I appreciate it very much so—in honest wonder at all times in my book of life. Amen to that!
At Dialysis/Update
Dialysis is going smoothly. The buzzer buzzed three times for two different reasons. One was related to the machine having a mishap then the second and third time was because I was pinching the lines with my left arm when I was trying to talk to Jackie P who called regarding my WisPACT account and my advisor was telling Jackie that she would not put money on my card account because of NOT having receipts when WE HAVE sent the receipt 3 times before today. I think my advisor is NOT competent enough to see her emails when we sent her receipts back in December. She is doing something wrong. Uugghh! Is she being stupid or think we are? It’s not right !! They knew what I am buying. I am at dialysis right now and trying not to have a meltdown people! Dialysis is going smoothly and the dietitian was out of works for several days because she ended up with Covid for several days. I felt for her.
Reading Again
Although I have forgotten the past several days, I have found time to read again. My mom and I are readers of stories. I love mystery, some horror, and true stories. I am reading Stephen King’s The Mist. I like his stories, but his stories are hard to get a hold of electronically through Libby and Hoopla these days, though. It’s frustrating and hard these days days, too. I do my best at getting his books.
A new day has begun at 6:30 AM. Upon taking my anxiety meds in the morning has made me a little groggy and sleepy in my lift chair, I’m downstairs waiting for my ride to dialysis as treatment starts today at 11:45 AM for three times a week a week. The holidays are over and we are back on track for Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays.
10:45 AM my ride has arrived very early. That’s okay, though. Maybe I can get in early in case there are problems with the catheter or machine today. I hope not anyway.
Driver’s Licenses, I Swear Come From Cracker Jack Boxes!!
I swear Andre Jones got his license from the Cracker Jack box or somewhere! He whips around the corners like no tomorrow or something unpleasant. Scary riding in the back while sitting in my power chair. I feel I am swaying left and right so fast that I am hanging onto my power chair arm for dear life or I will tip over sideways. It’s that bad in my book of life. It’s funny but not funny if he flips the vehicle at any time of day.
Waiting For My Turn
I am at dialysis waiting for my turn at the machine. I got here early today. Got here by 11:00 AM because ride for appointment came at 11:45 AM today. Record timing today.
When It Comes Down to Doing What’s Right
I am sick and tired of lying. What Jackie is doing is wrong and fraudulent! She is not working and is getting paid for it. Big fraud, and I can’t say a damn thing? No, I cant! I want to say something about it to my supervisor m but if I do, I will be living in a damn nursing home, and they don’t have enough nurses and staff working in them. I’d rather live at Evansville Manor if I did because the care is better there than St. Elizabeth’s nursing home. More nurses work there by experience. St. Elizabeth’s has only one nurse on the weekends and that’s BAD! I hope, without me able to say anything that Jackie butt gets bitten hard for being idiotic about getting paid for time she’s not working. It’ll teach the sometimes a bitch a lesson! I’m waiting for the day and moment.
Internet Issues Tonight
For some reason tonight, the internet is going in and out in the Garden Court building. It is very frustrating because it affects my ability to watch tv, play games on iPad and phone. In my case, not because I’m disabled, I need the internet to work properly for me because it is how I communicate, though I love to talk. The internet network just has to work properly for me. How am I spread the word of God? I can’t if the internet is not working right, right? Yea, RIGHT! Anyway, the internet is being broken tonight because Garden Courts building is old, and the cable company has to work with management being unmoving about allowing them to to upgrade their systems. Some apartments can’t have internet!
