Kristi Karnopp's Diary & Blog

A new day has begun. Jackie will be here shortly. The kitties are resting; Magic here on his cat tree, and I don’t know where Millie is at this time. I know she is alive, and is in the apartment somewhere, though. I did see her an hour ago climbing Magic’s cat tree. I think Magic loves his tree, but not sure. He is napping on top of his tree, though.

My day has started a little later this morning. Debbie did not get here until 8:39 AM. Jackie doesn’t need her to come early anymore, and it really should not matter. I should be telling her and Debbie when to be here to be very honest. This morning, once again,I want to fire Jackie because of her shit control of my life again. She has kind of pissed me off again! I am glad don’t see her until tomorrow, and to be honest with you, I really don’t want the Tupperware party. I’m doing it because Jackie has had her party last year at our building. It’s a waste of my time and money to be honest. I could careless if I had Tupperware stuff in my home even if it good stuff, and I do like Tupperware a lot. I used to sell it but stopped.

Dialysis Update

With the holiday season over now, my dialysis days are back to Mondays,Wednesdays, and Fridays. I am glad for my schedule, and now, I need to perfect my routine once again. It needs some work. I, no longer need to use my Hoyer at home, so that has been put away. We have it just in case the girls are here and I have fallen on the floor in my apartment. My goal is NOT TO FALL, though. I have been doing great NOT falling, though.

I have had dialysis for almost 6 years this year. From April 2019-April 2024 will mark 6 years since I started dialysis after 31 yers of great kidney function and my kidney got hit with a kidney disease. 31 years is a record in my life and it was my mom’s kidney! Dr. Anjum never had a transplanted kidney last that long in his years of being a doctor yet. I took good care of my kidney to my dad’s and his wife’s Sandy’s surprise. They did not even think I would have not taken care of it as well as I have taken care of it. In fact, I am not successful like my younger sister and older brother, and they think I don’t want to do anything, but lay around and be lazy, and that is not true. They think that my handicap has worsened because I didn’t do any exercises when Covid hit me in 2022 along with a hematoma stopped my legs from moving my legs, and I got a blood infection from the dialysis catheter. I was in the hospital twice last year and in two nursing homes. It’s not that I did not want therapy, it was very difficult to meet the demands of the therapists in both nursing homes, and the nurses there were rarely there because people don’t want to work in nursing homes anymore. Nursing homes are hurting and the generation after mine don’t really want to work. It’s ridiculous and stupid. No one wants to work in nursing homes. I was in two nursing homes with workers that are few. Patients are a lot and workers are less. At St. Elizabeth’s Nursing Home, on the weekends is one nurse for 50 residents at times because the younger generation don’t want to work or quit. It’s horrible. When I was at St. Elizabeth’s Nursing Home the first night, it took a nurse three hours to get me from the other end of the building because I accidentally pulled out the call button because that night. I needed something. I had a poopy diaper on me! Jackie thought that was unacceptable because I should not have waited 3 hours for a nurse, and when she found out that Melissa was the ONLY nurse on shift, she was even more pissed off. On November 14, even though AMA, I left St. Elizabeth’s Nursing Home and have been in the hospital one in 2023 because of a UTI infection went too far but was not corrected properly until a week after being admitted. Dr. Anjum was NOT very happy about that. Dr. Anjum had looked at my test results and saw they, the ER, DIDN’T give me antibiotics. He gave me Ciprofloxacin to correct my UTI. UGH! I get it. Now, when I get the feeling of an UTI, I have to get catches at the ER because my kidney no longer produces enough urine to pee in a cup, and those procedures can take a little longer trying to straight cath me. Ugh! I has to be done at the ER. It does suck at times, too, because it’s kind of, IS uncomfortable for me because of my hips and having CP.

With dialysis treatment over shortly, I will be getting off, get in my power chair, get weighed out and back in my power chair, and head downstairs to wait for my ride home between 2:45-3:00 PM, get something to eat, and into bed for the night after changing my clothes and running o the bathroom if I need to again. I will get my evening snacks, turn tv on, and watch my Roku Live channels because here, at the clinic I watch the Disney channel on their cable. Cable channels here are quite a few and it is 44.1 channel here. Bluey is on right now, lol. I love that cartoon, actually. I rarely watch cable shows anymore. I watch Roku Live at home now. Although I have 45 minutes left to dialyze, I need to patient to have my technician Christina take me off and that is another five to ten minute to take me off for the day. I am usually tired and ready for bed by the I get home these day. Can’t lay in bed all day tomorrow because I have a Tupperware party to go to despite my feelings about going right now is no way. No more parties after tomorrow but will be going to parties my neighbors have if they do after mine. Going to rest now. More later…

I have 37 minutes left to dialyze.

I am waiting downstairs for my ride with a few neighbors. I have dialysis this morning and afternoon. Apparently, some car tires got slashed by someone. How sick some people are. It’s disgusting!

Do You believe?

Do you believe there are UFO’s? I do believe in them. If Unsolved Mysteries aired people, four men, who have been abducted by beings not human to be having tests on them, and seeing these beings, I believe something extraordinary happened to them with no doubting their experience was nothing but true. It would be. . .wow, right? Yes, indeed, wow! UFOs do exist in my book. I met a gentleman in Roswell, New Mexico in 2000 at row Roswell Alien Museum after going to the a place that showed different aliens doing a variety of things as us humans explore and test on the aliens. I found the room cool, and the Museum’s research realistic and true no doubt. I forgot the name of the place before the alien museum.

After spending the day or afternoon in Roswell, we went back to Carlsbad, New Mexico with me convinced that aliens and UFOs do exist. I loved the places I visited and saw what aliens were like back in a day with other believers of aliens as Jesus allows our imagination of images occur. Aliens do exist! It’s not our imagination that they exist! Can other planets have humans live on them? I believe it could happen! Truth!

Robert Stack

As I sit and watch Unsolved Mysteries all day after a movie Jackie insisted, I watch Leave the World Behind with Julia Roberts, so I did. It was okay, but it was something I found not the best nor did I care for it was expected to be very honest about it. Have to watch it again to see its entirety again when home alone some weekend when my caregivers are gone for the afternoon. Robert Stack is one of my favorites although gone now foe a few years back. I loved watching him on television through the years, and I think of him as a legend okay from the Untouchables.

Another new day and I’ve pottied, got dressed for the day, went to my appointment at 11 AM, went to the Looking Glass Bar & Grill for lunch.i had their chicken strips and tater tots and fried mushrooms and one root beer to drink, then I drove my power chair home beating Jackie back to the building by a few seconds. As I was entering he  the first door inside between the back doors, she was back from driving her big, tall truck. It was cold out, but I was dressed warm enough to come and go. Now, Jackie is napping and I watched a Netflix movie Leave the World Behind with Julia Roberts, Kevin Bacon, and actors I am not familiar without for sure. Now I am watching Unsolved Mysteries on the Roku Live channel on channel520. Jackie wanted me to watch,,and it, and the little woman falls asleep in my recliner swivel chair—geez, lol.

With the movie watched, watching Unsolved Mysteries for a while, and having a dinner with steak in it before heading to my bedroom for the rest of the late afternoon, and Jackie leaves for the day to come Thursday morning. She will not be here tomorrow because an Aunt of hers had three appointments and wants Jackie to help out, and I wish she would be here, too. I guess I can be selfish in my thinking, too, but I am glad she can help family in some way, too. Good for Jackie. I just want Jackie here more. Sometimes I feel like I don’t see enough of Jackie, and sometimes she acts like she doesn’t want to be here when she says I need to be going by a certain time and I feel why bother coming at all then. She confuses me a lot of the time, too. Uugghh!!

Now with Jackie gone until Thursday.

Now, home, dinner eaten, television in the living room is sharing the screen saver of fish in a tank with an eel in the cave dwelling to entertain the kitties when they are in the living room at night. Watching Unsolved Mysteries on 520 Roku Live channel I watch more often than cable television Spectrum TV app.

I am back. It’s evening and dark outside. The kitty kiddos had their supper at 6 PM, and they are playing in the living room. Watching and listening to the tv. Midsomer er Murders, a British program on Tubi starring John Nettles as Tom Barnaby. I love British shows! The fact is, I am keeping track on the royal family in England. I have had respect for the queen, Queen Elizabeth II. When she died, I was in the hospital with my hematoma and the blood infection. Olivia Newton John died while I was in at Evansville Manor in Evansville getting better from Covid. That was when I had learned that the infection I had in September was put in my body and detected by my second hospitalization in September because the doctors and nurses noticed my behavior — goofiness and late responses to questions one Monday afternoon. Wow, what a trip and road I was wheeling on that week!

Now, with the New Year 2024, there will be memories of years passed throughout the days lived, but I am going to do my best at living the days of my journal I am writing about. Ever since Millie Rose Blossom has come and my dream of having a second kitten in my life with Magic came true on December 9^th, 2023, I have become a little happier with maybe the meltdowns in three weeks, and less days getting mad and upset. Seeing her be rambunctious and turning off my Christmas tree lights and bedroom tv off twice, playing with her big brother Magic Salem Victor well most of the time, and getting braver has put a smile on my face daily since due was adopted. Jackie adopted her because the humane society deemed her a feral kitty and were going to release her onto the streets of Janesville sooner than later. Jackie was not going to allow that to happen, and put Millie in her name at the shelter after spending practically 4 hours at the shelter getting her to cuddle and stay in her arms. So, now, when I die, the cats have a home to go to. I do wish that Jackie would have waited, but Millie’s situation was immediate enough to find her a home or be released into the unknown world to survive. Magic was from the streets but was not deemed feral at 5 months right away and he may have. Love my Millie kitty a lot. Now I have to love my babies equally without failing as a cat mom—their hooman mommy. There is no way in hell Millie is going back to the shelter again.

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

We made it to the New Year 2024! Wow! 2023 is gone now. With no resolution set, I am playing my days one day at a time with the day being a new each day from the days I have lived. If I had an emotional day one day, the next day can indeed be a better day most and more likely. I have to think positively from this day forward $and work towards to be stronger in days to come. Today may be a day of rest in bed, but I am semi p-busy tomorrow with my first nail appointment of the year at the Cats Meoww at 11 AM. I don’t have to return to dialysis until Wednesday.

I do have to admit that I have dealt with a lot of stress, anxiety last year in 2023, but it’s now 2024. The 1st day of the new year has come. December 2023 has left the stage for January 2024 to allow its 31 days to shine. It’s a great joy to have God allow me to wake up another morning this morning at 7 AM to see another day. “Thank you, Jesus, for another day to live and shine this day.” Amen.

Now, I know I have my faults and flaws in my life, but I don’t need to be reminded of them. I remember them and know what I have said, done, and thought of as I have a good memory recall at this time, and I do know I’ve been harsh at times and cruel—not proud of many things I have done, said, and thought. Yes, I have wanted to fire my caregiver Jackie many times, but she has been the best one I’ve had in the past almost two years now, I would not be living at home if it wasn’t for her today. I wouldn’t have two kitties to love today, either. Magic has brightened up three years of my life – to this day – and now Millie kitty has become our newest family member as of December 9th, 2023, at five months of age. The humane society deemed her as a feral kitty and were going to release her onto the streets, but I believe they deemed her feral too soon. She has her skittish streaks yet, but she is getting better at knowing her family and caregivers well. It’ll be a month soon enough. She has become one brave kitty and is getting braver each day. I am proud of her. I’m very proud of Magic, too, to be very honest. He’s a brother now, and the two get along most of the time. Sharing toys and cat trees is yet to be perfected, but it’ll happened. They have touched noses many times and they can lay next to each other without fussing much. Magic is going to be a good big and older brother. He will be 4 in May, and Millie will be 1 in July.  I know I have said a lot already. It’s okay because it’s my diary, right? Yes, it is.

With today being a ‘in bed day’, my caregiver will be back within the next 45 minutes from now. Being in bed all day was my choice for the day. Millie was playing with one of her toy balls and shut off the electricity power to my television and Christmas tree for the night after 8 PM last night so I was watching tv on my iPad until I fell asleep. Debbie, my caregiver, had to turn the surge protector back on to turn on the electric power back to TV and Christmas tree lights. Silly kitty. With her being so young at 5 months, I thought her paws were not strong enough to push buttons yet, but never put it out of your mind until it happens, I believe and guess. She may be small and speedy Gonzalez, but she is a good kitty. Magic is too, most of the time. Now, he has a playmate when I am at appointments for the day of 3 days a week. Dialysis is an appointment I really can’t miss unless it can’t be helped like weather conditions being at its worst. A very bad winter day ix a very good reason to miss a dialysis day.

Now, with the holidays done and over with, I can breathe easy again. . .hopefully, anyway. Will wait and see.

Well, it’s time for me to go for a little while. Debbie is on her way now. Jackie has the day off today, but I do wish she was here, though. I will be back later.

The Kitty Cat Kiddos

It has been for twenty-one days now for Millie Rose Blossom to be in her new home with Magic Salem Victor being her big brother. They have been running and playing all over the apartment for over a week now being civil to one another. Magic is learning that he has to share his toys with another growing kitten of five months now. He wants to play roughly with Millie at times, but they are getting along. Now, armed with two kitty cat kiddos, I have another emotional support pet in my life. I have a girl kitty again after 17 years when Emilee Marie Cuddles passed away from old age—literally. I have two old kitties to sleep in my lifetime this far, and now I have two kitty cats to love equally—if that is possible to be honest with you. JP wasn’t going to allow a deemed feral kitty stay in the humane society to put outside to roam the streets all its life. To be honest, I was not ready for a kitten again just yet, but the past 21 days, I’ve found it easier and easier to have two kitty cat kiddos after all. Tonight they are behaving well, I am proud of my kitty kiddos. Magic has changed a little bit, too. He still wants his loves and give his loves to DH and JP, and his mama (me). He gets treats and snacks at the same time as Millie kitty gets her treats and snacks. Millie likes to bother me when I am eating, and yes, she loves people food and is spoiled like her big brother Magic who does not understand his strength at times. I love how he talks to Millie kitty throughout the day, too. Wow! What a big brother. Once a frightened kitten is now becoming a brave kitten as her days move ahead for all of us.i love both kitties with all of my heart,

As the kitty kiddos get to know each other around the house, Magic is learning to share his toys and cat tree with a very active kitten. Magic was active when I adopted him at five months of age three years ago on October 4^th and 6^th of 2020 when it was four days after Bing passed away from kidney disease and hyperthyroidism on November 14, 2006, my best friend’s BM’s 35^th birthday. I called BM on her birthday to wish her a happy birthday and tell her I just lost Emilee Marie Cuddles.

My first two kitty cats lived good, long lives.Emilee lived 16 ½ years and Bing Noel-Crosby lived 14 years with me being put down due to illness on September 29, 2020. Four days later, I adopted Magic Salem Victor, a shy and nervous little kitten at 5 months of age because I was ready for a kitten again, but the last three years have been a mystery, great joy, and some heart retching moments with Magic kitty since I adopted him. Not long after he was adopted, he got into some raisins because he was able to get them where I put the container and that night he ended up going up to the animal hospital with JM waiting until 11 PM before getting home after midnight as she waited for the doctor and technician to give her an update of keeping him or bringing him back home that night. An overnight stay sufficed Magic’s present condition and JM had to work the next day by 5:30 as the morning cook at the hospital—a job she likes—paying $300 before she left, and I paid her back every month an agreed amount to appease the bill I had no problem paying my best friend back with $50 to $75 until the $300 bill was paid in full, I had to do it to prove that I appreciated what JM did for me when it came to Bing and Magic, my baby boys I loved then, and love today,

Earlier this week, I dropped my baggie of cheese because I was trying to have cheese and crackers for a snack and my dinner one night. The baggie went under the bed where I could not reach it, and Millie was getting at the baggie. I panicked and thought that Millie was having a feast of 5 to 6 pieces of cheese that night. I was calling myself a failure of being a good mommy to a kitten once again. She was going to be having a tummy ache and get constipated . . .but when JP found the baggie sealed shut and little teeth marks getting into the plastic baggie, but Maggie did not eat any cheese! You do not know how relieved I was in seeing that closed baggie! Very relieved and my ears finally cooled down from anxiety and I could go to dialysis thst morning with taking a deep breath for the first time that morning,

With Millie here now, Magic has a playmate when I am at dialysis for almost three hours. Millie has proven to be a good sister for him. She is my first girl kitty since 2006 when Emilee passed away after 16 ½ years. Her illness was old age, but her weight went from 8 pounds to 5 pounds in 6 months when one day I picked her up in a long time, and noticed her weight was lighter than the last time I picked her up by Z ruffing her because that was how she could be picked up. I knew that her life was short, and one day waiting for my appointment with the counselor, I knew that night it would be best to put her down—my first baby girl who was loved by me no matter how mean she was at times—and she was taken to the vet with people who loved her to say goodbye to her with me, so I would not be alone in my grief. My friend CD (female) cried for both of us Emilee’s body was just the shell, and even the manager of Burbank Plaza at the time, LS, NMS’s niece was also tearing a bit for Emilee passing away, LS is allergic to cats but she came to say goodbye with me. Now with two cats gone and now having two kitty cats, . .Magic and Millie has been a great pleasure since December 9, 2023 when JP and DH brought her to my place to live and be my emotional support animal. A skittish kitten who had some fears we have to work on. Now, my happiness is coming back at full swing. I have to think Magic and Millie for that. I yell less now, too. That’s thanks to Millie. She gets scared when yelling happens.

Now with the time being after 8:30 PM, it is time for me to say good night. It’s time for me to close shop for the day and rest, and sleep for the night. Millie and Magic have made their appearance from time to time today makes me stop what I am doing and pay attention to them for a few minutes or less. Millie is getting brave each day here and I am proud of her. I’m happy with Magic, too, of course, even though a few minutes ago I heard him be rough with Millie.

One More Thing

JP has plans for me to be able to get up and out of bed myself to get my snacks and walnuts about the apartment by myself. I am looking forward to those days coming soon. Yahoo!

 It is 7:01 PM and I am still waiting for my watch, phone, and iPad to charge, iPad has only charged to 76% in the past three hours now.