This past week I have been dealing with a lot of things but my world seems to drift back to my grandpa Clarence. I do not mean to constantly say I haven’t had a good cry yet all the time. I feel that it is getting old and driving me bananas now. I want that good cry to happen soon and get it over with but I do not want to force it upon me for no reason at all. U can not speed up the process of healing that’s for sure but I want that good cry to happen soon and now, I am feeling somewhat drained.