Last night I felt that my right to grieve the loss of my Grandpa Clarence was taken away from me. I thought that I had been given the not ok to miss my Grandpa Ckarence because of someone writing me an e-mail in reply to what I had written to a friend. I had gotten a reply directly from the person I had e-mailed this morning but last night I had gotten a reply from her husband because he had read her e-mail and thought that everything was about me. I had gotten very upset even considering the source is not a good source. I missed school again today because I did not get any due to thinking and dreaming about Grandpa Clarence, and the e-mail had triggered some feelings that were all negative. The pain, the loss, the numbness is back all over again!