My emotions have been bottled up long enough and now I am beginning to feel the pressure build up inside me. It is not a good feeling. One second I am laughing, the next I am wanting to cry, then I feel angry. I do not want a specific person at the memorial and I hope he does not show up. I am beginning to feel the pressure. Honestly, this has been a r0ugh eleven days – counting the days after Grandpa Clarence died. It will be two weeks this coming Saturday! WOW!