ARRRG!

How would I have titled this journal entry tonight and this hour of the night when I should be in bed and getting a good night’s rest. At times, which is one of these times now, I can not or will not go to bed with feelings not positive. In my school journal I had written about what I call the “School Ending Blues” and got to a positive ending at the end, but I was beginning to ramble on about my world that was not all related to school really – anymore, anyway, so I decided to come here to my more personal journal and finish my thoughts before retiring not caring how long it will take me to write this entry. I just will not go to bed without writing my thoughts tonight. I can’t. My heart will be feeling funny all night long. The feeling my heart has right now is definitely not the feeling I had last night when I tried to retire to bed at 11 p.m.. I was wired for some reason and could not get to sleep until 2 a.m. this morning and when I woke up, I could not get away right at 7 a.m. so I snoozed my alarm twice before actually getting up and dressed and ready for my day. I even got a call from my friend Kelly this morning shortly after 7:30 a.m. to check in with me before we met on the bus at 8:30 a.m. when I got on.

I feell that tonight, an ARRRRG! night is another rambling night for no apparent reason. My heart is getting put at ease now so I am beginning to feel better but something is nagging at my heart strings and it is not just the “school ending blues”. Maybe my friend Kelly can help me understand when she calls later or in the morning. We had talked briefly earlier this evening/late afternoon and she said we will talk later. I hope she is ok. I was worried about her because she was scared about doing a presentation in one of her classes. (Presentation will not be disclosed).

I just hate those feelings that include ARRRG’s! SMILE.

I will be ok…I know I will