March 10
Today was not a very bad day at all. Although I felt weepy all day, my day was pretty good. CSE did not come over yesterday or at all today either because she said her body was still tired so I did not have any company at all today whatsoever. It was nice. The reason I felt weepy all day is because my monthly is coming soon. I seem to be okay otherwise. I did call my caseworker to let her know exactly how I was feeling today and she did call me back upon my request and we talked for a while before her next association with a client. I even let a couple of my friends know so there was no miscommunication between us and in case my mood seemed off to them without any major problems and questions. JSL did text me back to ask if I was feeling better and okay now and we communicated through text. I even called my doctor’s clinic to ask about drinking my allowed fluids and two Gatorades a day instead of 1 ½ Gatorades a day and I was told that was okay.
With that said, I do have to admit through my weepiness this day, I was wondering what level of anxiousness I was feeling but I did not feel any anxiousness today. Through the wanting to cry while talking on the phone, reason for wondering what level of anxiousness I was feeling, I was talking kind of fast and words were somewhat jumbled up. Anyway …
I have had no need to vent today. I watched the Boomerang Channel on TV most of the morning and some of my recorded TV shows on my cable DVR system, did some reading, and of course some journaling. Even Bing Crosby the cat and I snugged and cuddled while I was reclining in my recliner most of the day. It was not a bad day for me at all.
I am going to say good night and God bless. I am tired and definitely ready for bed.
