My Thoughts at the Moment

Right now, to be very serious, I am not exactly afraid of going to sleep but not wanting to go to sleep.because I know what my subconscious mind will be turning in its path while I sleep and dream.  I am tired, yes, and it is 1130ish now and I am up late tonight being online on Facebook, doing an evening devotional I started earlier this evening and have done, and did some writing – as I am doing now in my diary.

I am so frustrated and unhappy right now that the tears have not yet fallen down my face but tears have welled up in my eyes at some point tonight – that is why I really do not want to go to sleep … knowing what is going to happen if I do.  It is never going to happen that my parents understanding things in my life.  I have two sets of parents and I know one set understands the things that go on in my life but the other set does not.  I have always felt like an outsider looking in with some immediate family members but when it comes to other family members, I am not an outsider looking in.  That is a very bad feeling to have and I wish I felt like I belonged where I do not feel I belong right now.

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I feel I am back to journaling once again.
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