I really need to snap out of this funk I am in. I need to get back to writing, studying the Bible, reading, and watching my most favorite shows of all time on my DVR box. I have to back to things I love – whether it is what I love to do or just plain love. I did need a week off from doctor and counseling appointments this week and it is the same until September now, so I have no appointments next week either. I need to set up a plan to write every morning again without time constraints or crunches. I have been very relaxed about that lately since the 14th of August – until yesterday actually. I NEED to get back on track. I am at the age now that death and dying is around me. I am no longer a child who needs protection from a parent or grandparent and in reality, ever since I have lived at Burbank Plaza, death has come along with living in a place like a apartment complex for folk 62 years or older. I am not the only tenant under the age of 62 living here but no more young people anymore. If young people want to live in a subsidized housing complex in Janesville, Wisconsin, they will have to live in Garden Court or Hamilton Terrace in Janesville. Those who are still under age 62 here have been grandfathered in. I love it here even though some of the tenants seem to hold something important to this place. No, I stay out of trouble…no worries there. I hate gossip and that does happen here a lot on a daily basis actually. Cliques even happen AFTER high school. LOL
Gossip, rumors, and such just continue and continue no matter where we live. I know for a fact that RM’s death last month did not upset a group of tenants…it pleased them actually. My heart burned with anger towards those tenants and believe me I wish that people would just get along no matter what. I am dealing with emotions to the extent that death has hit me four times since July. When gossip and rumor runs around I’d rather stay home and away from other tenants but I have to snap out of this horrible funk I am in right now and it has to start TODAY! The world evolves around me whether or not I am a part of something or not and I NEED to be a part of things again. This funk NEEDS to end NOW.