My Thoughts at the Moment

As I sit here and wait until I am out the door to head to church, I wonder what the rest of my day will bring for me and the people around me.  I do not want to think about what might or might not happen because hope gets dashed and disappointment rolls into my heart and mind.  I am doing my best at living a stress-free as well as anxiety-free world from this day forward.  I do not believe in making New Year resolutions because they are broken within days and weeks from making them although my overall health and kidney disease is always in the forefront of my mind as it should be.  2017 will leave soon enough and 2018 will be here soon enough, too.  I do not think that I am the only human being who thinks like this, but my thoughts ought to be known at times.  Yesterday was the last time I will be venting for the year 2017 as well.  I do want to find more time in my day to write in my diary, but I cannot promise anyone or myself that right now.  I do have a lot on my mind that can be shared or expressed, but that will have to wait for a while now.  I do not have a lot of alone time during the week anymore as I have help with cleaning, laundry, grocery shopping, personal cares, and my busiest day is always Monday.  I have to remember to breathe and take time for myself as well, and I am doing that right now.  It feels good to take time for myself…writing in my diary…something I do miss doing every day.  Hmmm?  Promises cannot be made.  I do have a life and a busy one at that, too.  Does life get busier when we get older?  I’ve noticed that life seems to bring on surprises and I’ve seen a lot go on in the past twenty years that cannot be counted…exactly.