Goodbye October and hello November. Welcome to cooler to colder weather until Spring. I am not looking forward to the colder weeks ahead, either. The way the months have gone by as quickly they have been, I doubt the months of November and December will go by very quickly. Who knows? The only being who knows, is Jesus.
With November playing it’s thirty days the best it can. I am dealing with some depression. I have been dealing with major anxiety these days as well. JP and I have been having some shouting matches these days, too. With my anxiety and depression in the past year now has proven to be the worst I have dealt with. I do not like my shouting matches. I am afraid of myself when I get that way—I am very mean—I can get mean. I need medication to correct the high and lows, of my brain. Right now, I have to wait to see a new doctor on November 16,2023 and January 5, 2024, when it comes to my primary care. I want to leave Mercy Health System and go to SSM Health, too. My trust in Mercy Health System has been very low in the past year since I left St. Elizabeth’s Nursing Home. There is doctor I wish to see her license be pulled. I am not going to see this doctor again, either. Will her license be pulled? Probably not.
Garden Court
My life at Garden Court has become unhappy. I just want to come and go from this place more so than anything. I do not care to be among other tenants who love to chat although I feel more welcome with these chatty neighbors. The other day, coming into the building tenants waved at me as I rolled past them to the elevator to my apartment. With a bad cold and JP bee sick this week, it has been difficult to get to the lobby to see other tenants anyway. Depression sucks—literally.
On October 27, 2023, a fire started on the fourth floor in an apartment. It was chaotic as management and maintenance running around and calling the fire department. Although the fire was only in an apartment, there were several fire trucks and firefighters involved with the case. The fire did not spread to further apartments, but it was still scary and nerving.smoke was coming from the fire into the lobby downstairs four floors below. I was worried and anxious about getting Magic Kitty to safety, and the anxiety had built up to panic. The management had their alarm going off to let other tenants know to evacuate the building, but no one was going out. Wow! No one heeded the alarm to evacuate! By then, anyway, the fire was out and the firemen inside were cleaning up their mess. The firemen outside were picking up their hoses and getting ready to leave. Because fire trucks and police officer vehicles were in the driveway and blocking other vehicles on Main St and Pease Court, my tide to therapy had to pick me up by the old Red Cross building. What an experience I do not to experience again.
Garden Court was built in the 1970’s and is an older building that needs to be updated. Has it been updated? I do not know, but I do know that tenants were displaced for a while worn apartments were being remodeled a few years ago. My friend DC has lived here long enough to experience that. Now, since that fire, JP had heard that the tenant who had the fire was being evicted becaude of the fire. Did he cause the fire because of his stupidity or did the fire happen because of electrical? Where did JP hear that this tenant is being evicted? I cannot take what I hear from any tenant like JP does. I do not want to believe what tenants say about other tenants unless I see it for myself that someone is going to be evicted. I wish JP would not believe what she hears, but I cannot convince her at all.
