Oh, My Goodness Tomorrow is My Nail Appointment at 11 AM
JP texted me about my appointment for getting my nails a little while ago. It is dark outdoors, but quite 7 PM. My thought about my nail appointment is actually exactly like this:
‘Oh, shit, tomorrow is the 28th already!’
Okay, I have my appointment tomorrow. Also, I am jumping the gun here. I am not talking about my swearing being the problem because I have been moody and in a funk because of my damn parents and their ‘let us remind Kristi of her past,’ kick before we leave. Absolutely uncalled for. My parents never fail to ruin a happy holiday dinner even before we even, please forgive me, Jesus, fucking eat our Thanksgiving dinner for our Thanksgiving get together. Damn it, Dad! So, I spaced that the 28th was tomorrow. The days have been busy or a darned blur for being so tired with my new anxiety med Seroquel! Been having a hard time staying awake in the mornings and early evenings after taking the necessary dosage now twice a day. I literally hate being dopey and tired when I know I should be awake, but fighting sleep. What a trip.
Ummm, What Happened Today Before 3 PM?
So much has happened today to my dismay, and I am not satisfied with how my day went at all, except dialysis went fairly decently today with a few hiccups with my blood pressure, and machine. My day was just not my best day today whatsoever. It was horrible in my way of thinking that I can say that I was surprised that I was able to do anything right throughout my bad day PERIOD!
So, what happened during my day? Well, a lot. First, the internet was being problematic at dialysis the entire time I was hooked up for 2 hours and 45 minutes. The need to talk to JP because I am frustrated and upset did not happen at all. Her day was too busy to help me through what was bothering me, and what my parents said and did on Saturday has been bothering me badly for two days to where I am hurting and wanting to divorce my parents and not want them in my life today and I my future. I do not want dad, SBK, or my mom in my life anymore, PERIOD, because they piss me off by bringing up my damn past when it needs to stay in the past. I am in a darned funk for days and hours after their shitting display of so-called love and concern for me. Kicking me out of the house because I dropped pills on the flood by accident-ASSHOLES! I did not do it on purpose nor did I want to harm my sister KLK. Then, before my parents left, they said that KLK will be here for our Christmas get together, when all these years she worked for Target, she never came with them. The idea of me dropping my pills on the floor has angered me even more for them bringing that up. A big ‘oh, shit has been found once again! I rarely swear, but once I get going, it ends sooner or later once i finally get past it, but this time, I am feeling like shit to this moment in my time. Please, Jesus, give me more strength. What I life I am l and need to got back to my Christian roots with Jesus.i am losing it today!
Getting out of the clinic and trying to call You Buy We Fly to let them, and my ride know I am downstairs waiting for Daniel to pick me up was coming, and not getting through because my phone would call out. With the internet being funky and now my phone will not call out. Trying to call YBWF sixteen times, I went back upstairs to the dialysis clinic to have them call YBWF to find out when they were coming. I turned off my phone and turned it back on while clinic was calling the ride company. After calling YBWF, I headed back downstairs to wait for D (male) who is my driver. What else could go wrong today? Practically and definitely one more thing.
I wanted to talk to JP about my so-called bad day and funky ass mood, but that did did not happen tonight whatsoever. Getting sleep tonight will be pretty difficult I imagine. Not being able to talk to someone about my day is so important, and I wanted to talk to JP, not DC. Dang it. What a BBBBBAAAAADDDDD day it was today. When it rains, it pours. There was no getting past my bad today once it began. Did I have anything good happy happen today? Yes, I saw my I (female) today while on my way to dialysis this morning.❤️
