Kristi Karnopp's Diary & Blog

New iPhone

Although I have already mentioned that I got a new iPhone, I did, thanks to Jackie going to the AT&T store and I paid $66 to $68 for it and will be paying for it at $33 to $35 a month for three years with my AT&T bill. It is worth it because my iPhone 8+ does not hold a charge much anymore, but again that phone is 8 to 10 years old now, and my iPhone is almost 4 years old. With the payments paid off by July 2023, I have used my iPhone 12Pro Max a few extra months after paying it completely off, and now I have an iPhone 15 Pro Max as of today. The phone itself was very expensive and according to the AT&T website I have $1,199 dollars yet to pay off my phone. Yes, three years is the maximum amount. Every month I will be paying up to $35 a month—WOW! Well, Jackie let me get a new phone and she can use my iPhone 12 Pro Max to log in and out of IRIS daily. From the amount of time, I have had my new phone in my hands has been great even though on the Sabbath I bought things. I do not feel guilty, but I do feel somewhat ashamed because I could have waited until Monday ti be very honest with you.

No Boyfriend Visit Today

I will be honest right now, but not seeing Ken and Tanya today did make me feel very disapointed. Once again Tanya’s texts did not come through from her phone to mine did not come through. Ken wanted to do something different today with his mom. Although we have not been working on getting in and out of a vehicle with me, yet, an offer for me to go and be a part was not offered, and that made me feel kind of crappy. I have been looking forward to seeing Ken and Tanya this afternoon-unless they after church, and Tanya’s messages did not come through nor did Ken even call. UGH! We have been going out with each other for ten years now to be honest withefs  you, and we do love each other like a married couple love each other, but our health issues stop us from getting married right now. With our medical needs and disability funds being low, marriage would am make things more difficult to be a married couple and our beliefs being what they are as Seventh-day Adventist, living together is a no no for us. We live separately. Ken lives in Beloit and I live in Janesville. We are girlfriend and boyfriend for the rest of our lives alive unless Jesus changes that fact for the rest of our libes. I am okay with it as long as Jesis states. I am ok with it. I do not want any other man in my life to take Ken’s place. I am willing to obey God the best I can on good and not so good days. I am still learning.

Tithing

 I will be very honest here. I have not been tithing lately. I will need to talk to Julie M and Tanya Baker to get that going again. When I did it before Covid and the hematoma came about in 2022, I loat track of my debit each month, and it felt good that it paid off in the long run. Sure, right now may not have been the greatest idea of give a monthly check of $50 to $100 had rewarding me greatly during the year, but lately I have not been tithing for months again. Dang it! More later when I have more time to tithe and pay all my bell and feel rewarded. Hmmm, things to change. I have already had some time aside …

Getting Caught Up

I think I am getting caught up posting my diary at Ksmiley.deardiary.net

Thank goodness it is Friday! Although waiting for my medical ride this morning was ridiculous, not fun at all as I did not get picked up until 11:22 AM, and then I did not get hooked up to one of the dialysis machines. I ended up dialyzing for two hours and thirty minutes from 12 PM to 2:30 PM before being unhooked, weighed out and 91.6, and headed downstairs to wait for my ride until 3:05 PM or shortly after 3:05 PM. It was not my day for waiting for my ride today—not that much anyway, even though I was patient waiting since today is Friday. I have a two day break from dialysis to return for another week of treatment Monday morning at 11:45 AM.

I have not really given an update this time since my week has not really changed much. I am in the 190-198 pound range of weight that is NOT acceptable in my mind and life. I NEED TO lose the weight that was gained– no thanks to Seroquel over a month ago. I have been weaned off Seroquel and put on Prozac at 10 mg two times a day for the first seven days and then 10 mg in the morning, and a week ago, Thursday, April 4, 2024 on a televisit meeting with Dr. Christopher Taylor upped the dosage of Prozac to 20 mg once a day. The med IS working well at this time even though during the during the past two weeks until April 9, 2024, I had a hard time with sadness because I misunderstood a very good friend of mine — Donna — not texting me for a whole week. With Donna not texting me back general texts as well was hurting me badly and so badly that I rode away from the building only a few feet from the door saying I wish I could live at a hotel for the remainder of my days waiting for my new apartment else where opens up. Whatever apartment–River Flats or Riverview Heights, and believe me, I will, those two weeks of pure sadness that was truly bothering me, without looking back and could careless of the tenants–even

I have not really given an update this time since my week has not really changed much. I am in the 190-198 pound range of weight that is NOT acceptable in my mind and life. I NEED TO lose the weight that was gained– no thanks to Seroquel over a month ago. I have been weaned off Seroquel and put on Prozac at 10 mg two times a day for the first seven days and then 10 mg in the morning, and a week ago, Thursday, April 4, 2024 on a televisit meeting with Dr. Christopher Taylor upped the dosage of Prozac to 20 mg once a day. The med IS working well at this time even though during the during the past two weeks until April 9, 2024, I had a hard time with sadness because I misunderstood a very good friend of mine — Donna — not texting me for a whole week. With Donna not texting me back general texts as well was hurting me badly and so badly that I rode away from the building only a few feet from the door saying I wish I could live at a hotel for the remainder of my days waiting for my new apartment else where opens up. Whatever apartment–River Flats or Riverview Heights, and believe me, I will, those two weeks of pure sadness that was truly bothering me, without looking back and could careless of the tenants–even Donna–that day. I did not care who heard my words at that time.

Well…now the weekend is here. Yay! Until next week, more dialysis updates when a new week begins, and for emotional reasons, I AM NOT looking forward to another week at dialysis. Anyway, I have to get to Day 13 now. Goodbye for now, peeps.

A Quick Morning of Thoughts

I really do not have a lot of time to write at this time, but I have a few minutes to be as quick as I can. I have an appointment at 12 noon to get my nails done for the first time this month, and then at 1 PM, I have my IRIS consultant coming for my ninety-day visit. I am sitting in the leaving room in my power chair at the kitchen table. The windows are open in the bedroom and living room today even though it is supposed to rain this afternoon. Hopefully it does not rain until AFTER my nail appointment. Also, management is having apartment inspections on my floor today. 

Well, it is time for me to go for now. I have to my appointment down the street. Time to pamper myself.

Ready For Bed

With Deb and Jackie gone now, I am ready for bed, and in bed. I will not argue how my day has gone today. I have been active all week and in my bedroom all the time. In fact, I am going to do some more time in the living room when I can now that the weather is now getting warmer for spring and summer months. Sitting at my kitchen table in the living room on my Chromebook Pro is a start of feeling better, so I am not cooped up in my bedroom all the time now. I am wanting to do more things in the future, so Jackie, Deb, and an occasional Julie M will be working with me on getting to places like the movie theater, the Milwaukee Zoo, and maybe to Wisconsin Dells for the weekend. We need to make sure I can get into Deb’s vehicle while a little mobile and take my wheelchair with me–maybe fit my power chair in the vehicle if we can find some ramps to put the chair in the vehicle with us. We will wait and see. Some things to look forward to, and sitting in the living room today was very nice and cool. It brought my spirits up quite a bit.

Nails 

I got my nails done with a color that changes color. Pink turns yellow with colored spots. I let Jackie pick the colors out and I allowed my gal to pick something to go with the colors and Jackie chose colored spots. I like the colors and next time I plan to pick the colors I want. 

My Appointment with Julie R 

I need to admit that if a meeting each 60 to 90 days was not necessary, I would not even worry about them as much. Today was my time to see her. I do not call her every week anymore. I am too busy these days and I’ve accepted my disability as it is now, but it took 2 ½ years to accept it. And no, I don’t like it very much. 

Millie’s Contribution to My Diary by Walking on my Chromebook Pro, LOL… 

I wonder what Millie is saying here: 

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I love ❤️ Millie’s contribution to my diary entry for the day. She is such a good girl most of the time, but she thinks she needs to eat people food by eating what I eat, her human mommy. What a poor kitty who had to defend herself in the days of her roaming before the Rock County Humane Society (RCHS) rescued such beautiful, young, five-month-old kitten and her siblings. She’s my skittish kitty I adopted on December 9, 2023 or more or less, jackie and Debbie spent a couple of hours at the shelter with Millie Rose. 

The Rest of My Day 

After Julie R left for the day, I still sat in my power chair for a while until Jackie and Deb left as Deb came by after babysitting to visit for a while. We were planning on practicing on getting into the shower using my shower chair, but I got tired, and it got kind of late. I felt I had a long, productive day, though. It may have been a little cloudy and rainy, but it was a fair, good, long, and productive day today. I could not ask for more. I sat at the kitchen table in the living room next to the living room window enjoying my day at home. 

13 

Ready For Bed 

Well…Jackie has left, and I am now in bed for the night. I am not going to argue how my day went at all today although I do have to admit that I wanted to get home sooner than a few minutes after 3 PM in reality. Today, while dialyzing for 2 hours and 45 minutes on the machine, I did not even get on my iPad or even read. With only four hours of sleep last night from 4:30 AM to 8:40 AM was not quite enough sleep, so I relaxed the entire time and watched videos on YouTube on my phone. ‘Yawn’, time for me to put my electronics down and off and relax. I AM NOT LOSING SLEEP TONIGHT, people. Good night and God bless and sleep tight. 

Feeling Emotionally Better 

From what gas upset me with my friend Donna is pretty much over, I have moved onwards to better things. Donna and I talked yesterday, April 9 for a few minutes at her door. It was before we went back upstairs to my apartment after breakfast and the library. I’m just a bit frustrated about my weight right now. I was 92 kilograms on the way in and I can only take 2.2 kilograms off me at a time before my blood pressure drops below 100/50 or needs to be rechecked because it hasn’t registered a read. Yeah, I will talk more about it later. I have 48 minutes left to dialyze now. 

Dialysis Update II 

I left at 90 kilograms at 198 pounds today. That is a little discouraging to say the least at this point in my life as dialysis patient who has been under 190 pounds until I started taking Seroquel and been weaned off it and now taking Prozac to settle my moods a bit. The past two weeks have proved to be emotional because I was not understanding why my friend Donna was not texting me ‘how are you’ or ‘how your weekend’ was. Anyway, I am waiting for my ride downstairs on the first floor outside as it is very gorgeous out above 50 degrees and warm. I am not wearing my cat jacket whatsoever. That is how gorgeous it feels out here. 

Feeling Emotionally Better

From what gas upset me with my friend Donna is pretty much over, I have moved onwards to better things. Donna and I talked yesterday, April 9 for a few minutes at her door. It was before we went back upstairs to my apartment after breakfast and the library. I’m just a bit frustrated about my weight right now. I was 92 kilograms on the way in and I can only take 2.2 kilograms off me at a time before my blood pressure drops below 100/50 or needs to be rechecked because it hasn’t registered a read. Yeah, I will talk more about it later. I have 48 minutes left to dialyze now. 45 minutes left now .

Dialysis Update I

I have a little time left to dialyze yet as I am at dialysis today. Dialyzing for 2 hours and 45 minutes does not always seem to be a long process, but sometimes it does. Today is going fine and my life here at the clinic is okay today. I got hooked up on time at 11:45 AM for the first time in a long time, but I am not complaining about it today. It is my real time to be on at 11:45 AM and they are short handed again today and a nurse is a technician today, my technician, and this nurse is very particular with her patients and co-workers. I like the nurse who is being a tech today. Even the Director of the dialysis clinic is being a nurse today getting vitals of the patients’ heartbeat and check their breathing. All is good in Pod 5. I am in chair #19 today and it’s a nice change to be on the other side with two patients across the way in chairs 16 and 17 today. I do r have my buddy Ray in my sights today because he’s in a different pod today 😳. Anyway, that’s okay. I have my favorite techs in my pod today, too. A new technician is learning the ropes. Her name is Felicia and she’s pretty cool!

Well, I have 1 hour and under 15 minutes left to dialyze before being taken off. I will write an update when I get home by 3 PM or after I get settled in my bedroom before Jackie leaves for the evening. I have been sitting here listening to a patient’s television program and relaxing since I did not have but two to three hours of sleep because I was still awake at 4 AM before putting my electronics down from a while to pick them up again  by 7 AM to play games again since I was awake. Tomorrow is another day and I have an appointment at home with my IRIS consultant at  1PM and I hope I can go to my nail appointment tomorrow at 12 noon. Chances of rain tomorrow 😳😓 but if it does rain, I can reschedule. My nails will be fine for another few days for sure even though I need to fix one nail that lost its color last week because I had an itch fest going on two weeks ago and the color peeled off all the way. Just one nail and of course it’s ’the bird finger’ on my left hand, lol. I can laugh about it at least 🙃👍🏻

I have 57 minutes left now.

Still Awake

My brain will not shut down right now. Another sleepless night last night. I will be okay as I will definitely sleep tonight. I am no longer upset or as upset and sad as I Jace been for the past two weeks. If I did an evaluation with my psychiatrist or therapist would definitely say I have been downtrodden these past two weeks because I have been very upset and sad. Seeing Donna in person yesterday at her door and chatting with her helped my downed mood pick up a little bit so now I can begin the healing process now. Anyway, it’s a few minutes after 4 AM and I’m going to get some rest before I get ready for my day and dialysis treatment. My iPad is on the charger now, and I have to wait until Debbie comes to get my phone off the bedroom floor because the darn thing slid to the floor from my slippery bed covers after midnight. Good night although it’s morning now? More entry later. Take a breath and breather Miss Kristi. Ahhhh, more later.