My class was canvelled this morning…unhappy sigh. At least I have my Econ. homework done so I don’t have that hangong over my head this weekend since the project is due on Monday of next week. I have the projects done for BL done as well but I am going to look over my work and make sure I have everything I want done is done. I was beginning to talk about Looking Through the World With Different Eyes earlier but I only had a few minutes to spare. Due to BL being cancelled, I have plenty of time before Economics begins at one o’clock. I can get to the project I had started here and probably finished before my next and last class for the day, but I have to rethink what I wanted to write in the first place…I HATE THAT!…LOL
I have not been taking any of my anxiety and depression medication since Thursday morning and I have been feeling pretty perky and upbeat instead of being in fog-like stage and just going through the motions of life just to pass the day away smoothly and surely. The decision of not taking my medications was okayed by my doctor who knows I have been on the medication for some time. I am not sure of what two medications, Prozac and Xanax were causing me to be in a fog-like stage or not but I have an inkling that it had a lot to do with the Xanax. The Prozac could have been the reason as well. Well, the doctor and myself are going to keep an eye on me while I go through this transition in my life and I surely am very comfortable with that at this point. Anyway, being somewhat doped up just to live a day the best I could was becoming a concern between some friends and myself. I am now taking medication only related to my transplanted kidney of fourteen years.
I have, since Thursday, been seeing my life being played on an even keel instead of a rocky one. I do have to admit that I am feeling a little much like a woman with this period of mine right now but it surely isn’t bad at all. Now, with the anxiety and depression behind me and I am fighting every fight possible in a good way, I don’t feel like a dope anymore. I have been sleeping well at night and through the night without any problem since Friday morning. I still feel a little anxious now and then of course but I surely can tolerate it and deal with it with help from God. I know I can not fight this fight alone. I would be very lonely if I was fighting this fight alone because I wouldn’t have God there to protect, help, and be there for me otherwise. i see things through my eyes a little bit differently at this time and I know it is going to get better instiead of worse for me if I keep an even keel of my life as I have been since Friday morning.