This evening for dinner, my mom and stepfather and their friends are going to pick me up and we are going to a restaurant named “Diamond Dave’s” a barbeque dinner place. Oh how exciting it sounds to be spending some time with my mom this evening even though friends will be along with us! As of now and a few days ago, I am not going to have high expectations of my mom ever again because I ALWAYS get DISAPPOINTED and HURTING inside very badly. I need to live my life the way I see fit and not worry about what other people think even though my parents, both sets, mean well as far as my weight and getting a decent job. I have relatives up north about 200 miles away but my immediate family live in other states and we are definitely distant as far as states are concerned. I am thirty-two years old now and I need to be happy for me and I do have to take care of myself. I just know I will need a lot of encouragement and a few reminders now and then that my family is the way they are and I HAVE TO accept that even though it can and will be very hard for a while. Do I ever have to really pray hard and rely on my personal Savior and Lord in regards to my mom and my stepfather now. I have a long road to walk on – a recovery that is neccessary for sure.