Rememberiing 9/11 Pt 1

Since it is fresh on my mind this morning, I thought I would write something about 9/11 even though it is a day early. FOr the longest time I have been wanting to write something about 9/11 anyway even though I have in the past some time ago. My stepfather read what I had written last time and I got a repot back from him that practically put me in tears – as if my feelings about what happened did not matter to him and that I should have been over the attack by that time! That really hurt me even more than a friend breaking plans all the time. Now that a year has passed, 9/11 has an anniversaryy now. the “Attack on America” has affected everyone differently. I did not lose anyone in the attack but my heart felt the ache of those who did. How could someone, like Bin Laden (Sp?), hate so much? How I feel about this is this: We have our own terrors and problems in this country that someone out of the country causes terror makes it even more worse for our nation. Do I seem angry? Maybe I am and yet I haven’t been able to disclose it and let it go and ride it off, but our country was attacked! A year has gone by now and seeing and hearing the news on a daily basis, my heart just makes a sickening thump in my body. My throat has a kump now and then forming to where I can not swallow what is there and I choke. I feel so sick that I even look sick. What happened to this nation a year ago makes my little insecurities and fears so small like little itty bitty ants. I do not know how much I have cried in the past year in regards to the attack on our nation. Now my stepfather’s remark about letting go the attack and live my life the way I have lived it before seems so petty and hateful as well. I do have feelings you know. Have I calmed down yet? 🙂 I know it is not a laughing matter. I am not laughing…

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I need to finish my thoughts later. My cleaning lady is hear and she is now running the vacuum cleaner and I can not even hear myself think – let alone keep what is on my mind from getting all cluttered up with the noise of the vacuum cleaner, LOL. Now that is funny! More on my thoughts later.

Author: ksmiley

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