Monday, Tuesday, and Right into Wednesday!

I have not been in the best of moods for the past two days. In fact, I am finding myself a little down and depressed because of the “why” of the not the best of moods. I am sitting here thinking of why people do the things they do just to irritate, aggrevate, and or make someone else very unhappy. It does not matter where we go in life, there is going to be someone who is so unhappy that they could and would complain about every little thing and what is already being done does not satisfy their wants. There is ALWAYS a bowl of cherries with some rotten cherries in it! This is such an imperfect world. I am finding myself that in order to be happy I have to make myself happy and no one else. I know that I do not make everyone in my life happy either with decisions I make, etc…, so I have to do what I have to do to make me happy. I have not been in the best of moods since Monday. In fact, I have been doing a lot of crying at night before I go to bed. I have been hurting in my heart so bad that the tears have been many. I still want to hide in a corner or be in the confines of my apartment, and cry all the tears out that are still wanting to be shed. I am not feeling very happy right now and haven’t been happy since Monday night. I feel that I have been accused of something I know I am not doing even thouogh the person is not accusing me of anything but blowing off steam themself. I also feel that I am so hated by a group of people that among themselves they are saying that I am spreading rumors and lies all over the place such as the internet and to other people. What a life these people live! Not a happy life!!! Such gossip and rumors CAN BE hurtful and I surely do have an aching heart because of gossip and rumors. YUCK!

to be continued