The Blues

That Time of Year

Don’t get me wrong, I love holidays, but ever since my grandma died on October 1, 1997, my holidays have been different. I feeling of sadness rings in the air during the holiday season even though I have always celebrated the holidays with family and/or friends. For the past three years I have made it a tradition to go up to my Aunt Jackie’s for the Christmas holiday so I am not alone for the holidays and feeling even more sad than I care to. Staying at my aunt’s house for the holidays gives me a feeling of home and comfort

and I feel I belong and I am not an outsider. I also get a little bit moody during the holidays as far as gift giving and receiving. I find myself liking tot give more than receive now a days and I do not care if I get a gift anymore. All that matters to me now a days. I consider being with family for the holiday a gift in itself and you can not wrap it and put it under the tree. So I have mixed feelings during the holidays and most celebrated holiday such as Easter, Christmas, Birrthdays, and Anniversaries. I can get a little bit emotional at times because it is me.