Sometimes It Seems Difficult

I need to get this written before Rick gets here. He will be here at 1 p.m. or so. I do not want to be online when he is here unless he makes me mad enough to turn away from him and let him be childish. I am still a little mad about yesterday’s fiasco over the phone but I will not discuss it right now with him because it will raise more questions about our relationship. Why he mentioned his ex-girlfriend e-mailing him I have no idea why and I think his action was downright rude and dumb. If he still has any feelings for her or is in a friendship relationship with him, I will get rid of Rick in flash and make sure he does not have any contact with me whatsoever. He is downright stupid in mentioning the fact about his ex-girlfriend who is a liar, a cheater, and a childl herself the way she acts. Is she pregnant? I do not think so. She is such a compulsive liar. She screwed someone over real good by sleeping with another man while she was dating a friend of mine’s friend some weeks ago. Seeing her in the Mall Friday afternoon really started up something nasty in my head, and I am questioning my relationship with Rick more so than ever now that he has mentioned her again. What a jerk he is. I do not want to hear about his girlfriend problems of the past before us anymore!

Being in a relationship is difficult when feelings are tested and troubled.