This May Not Be The Right Time For Me

My ex-roommate called again last night and SHE did not leave a message at my voice mail box for some reason. Her calling me is not the right time for me and in reality I wish she would leave me alone entirely. In fact, she went to my friend Nellie Mom last week for some reason and I felt that she was prying into my life (ex-roommate prying). My life is NOT her business and I do not want to be a part of her life anymore. I know it is not Christian to feel this way but my ex-roommate seems like a nagging type and does not take life very seriously when it is time to be serious unless it is her life and no one else. I do not understand her anymore and I want to go on with my life. I have given her enough chances throughout the past five years since I have moved out but I can no longer give her any chances. All I can do is pray for her and let her go. She is NOT a friend. What she has done to me in the past year or so is what a FRIEND would not do. I just rekindled a friendship from high school and between KW and I, we are more mature than what my ex-roommate seems to be right now. I just want to be left alone. She needs to stop calling me and I have talked to people who should be taking care of the situation after the fact I have talked to my ex-roommate myself some time back. She is just annoying and causes so many problems and havoc among others. She reminds me of my ex-boyfriend who turned out to be nothing but possessive and controlling some months after our relationship began.

Relationships? I have my “true” friends, my diary, my family, and God in my life. I really do not need to worry about having a man in my life right now as it is me I have to take care of. Anyway, with the past two relationships I had, which was one of the reasons they were strained is the fact that I am very cautious about getting too close and cuddly. I do not like to do that with anyone. I wish to sometimes to put my head on my mom’s lap and have her stroke my hair and put me to sleep with her lullabying voice but that is so much different from being cuddly with a man — someone I would want to love for the rest of my life. Relationships are tricky sometimes. This may not be the right time for me right now. I need to focus on my career choice and get through college and get a job in Accounting and I need to take care of myself again.

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2 Responses to This May Not Be The Right Time For Me

  1. Britani18 says:

    you have to live your life for two people…God and yourself. I do wish you the best of luck with you ex roomate. God bless.


  2. GoingUnder20 says:


    I’m sorry your ex-room mate may be trying to get into your life. Your right, its not her business what you are doing anymore and I think she is trying to be annoying. Sounds like to me she has no life. Hope everything works out!


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