I will be very honest here. Today was not a good day for me. I have felt every emotion there is and it sure does not feel so great. I am getting tired of appointments and I wish there was a break from going to appointments for a while but I have to hold on a little longer.
I have not used my CPAP machine for over a year but today I promised someone other than myself I would begin using it again after getting a new mask for it that I feel more comfortable with but I have to wait until Thursday night after another appointment. I do know and understand that all the appointments I have been going to are for my health and own good but what I am observing is the amount of appointments I have in a week that does not settle with me very well. I dealt with anxiety for the first time today that I have not experienced in quite a while or the building up of anxiety since April 14th. It sounds crazy but it is true. My levels are over the roof. It is a feeling I have not had in a long time and now I know what it is feel like and I do not like it one bit. I feel I have fallen off the wagon but in reality I just had a very bad day. I cannot wait until this week is finally over and Friday evening comes and the weekend is finally here. That is how I feel today. I do not want to have this overwhelming feeling again. I have to get back on track now!