A Bad Day

I will be very honest here.  Today was not a good day for me.  I have felt every emotion there is and it sure does not feel so great.  I am getting tired of appointments and I wish there was a break from going to appointments for a while but I have to hold on a little longer.

I have not used my CPAP machine for over a year but today I promised someone other than myself I would begin using it again after getting a new mask for it that I feel more comfortable with but I have to wait until Thursday night after another appointment.  I do know and understand that all the appointments I have been going to are for my health and own good but what I am observing is the amount of appointments I have in a week that does not settle with me very well.  I dealt with anxiety for the first time today that I have not experienced in quite a while or the building up of anxiety since April 14th.  It sounds crazy but it is true.  My levels are over the roof.  It is a feeling I have not had in a long time and now I know what it is feel like and I do not like it one bit.  I feel I have fallen off the wagon but in reality I just had a very bad day.  I cannot wait until this week is finally over and Friday evening comes and the weekend is finally here.  That is how I feel today.  I do not want to have this overwhelming feeling again.  I have to get back on track now!

 

Author: ksmiley

As a diarist and blogger, please bear with me as I continue to upgrade my blog as time moves forward. Thank you.

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