Today is the day I turn 44 years old. Yep. I do not feel any different yet. It is just a number. I am not much for birthday parties anymore. I do not mind not celebrating my birthday anymore anyway. Acknowledging is all that is needed. Anyway, there is a potluck this afternoon at 1 pm. I have a busy day today before the potluck. I have my shower gal here from 830 am to 945 am, then MJ comes to cook my weekly meals and for the potluck we are making banana nut muffins. I do have to admit that, today, I have mixed feelings about going but then I believe I am dealing with some depression and I just do not want to be around people or both. I have no other plans for my birthday otherwise so I am going to ‘suck it up’ as people say and enjoy my day as best I can. I believe I am going through some depression.
Time For Myself Now
I have time for myself now. My shower was taken and I am dressed for the day. I am wearing a red, white, and blue top with my favorite shorts that I got from my $700 shopping spree at Wal-Mart last month. I have an hour before I have to get across the hall. I can say that I am a little excited that is enough to get me out of the house for awhile for the early and mid-afternoon day.
After the Potluck
The potluck was still going on at 2 pm when I left. I had to leave because I was feeling a little overwhelmed. Since I have gone to the potluck – my presence known for an hour – visited with the tenants/neighbors for a while, I decided to take time for myself. Since it is my birthday and I am 44 years old, it was time for me to get on Facebook. I have been watching the newsfeed and seeing the birthday wishes come and go and I did not want to miss anyone and thank them.
Birthday Plans
I have no major birthday plans. No party or anything. No need to have one and definitely old enough not to worry about birthday parties. Going to the potluck and making myself known for a while, and being others was a party in itself even though the potluck was for the acknowledgment of the 4th of July. Even though it was for the 4th of July, I was able to go first in line after the cooks and the tenants who set up the potluck. It was nice to be recognized. Otherwise no birthday plans for this gal.
