I talked to my dad for awhile this afternoon. One of the subjects we talked about was my brother and his wife. Dad told me that my brother had gotten in contact with dad a couple of times – when my dad had his severe heart attack a couple of years ago and when he learned that his middle granddaughter was getting married and she wanted dad there. It came to the point that dad told my brother where he stood and why. I told dad, too, that I was hurt by them both and I do not want nothing to do with them even if they did change. All I can do is pray for my brother and his wife and that will be all I can do or I will end up getting hurt again. Now that I talked to dad about what was troubling my heart, I can move onward in my life.
All week since Monday my heart has been feeling a heaviness that can not explain very well without breaking into ill feelings such as anger and crying. I have crashed twice since Monday in a 3 hour nap because my eyes couldn’t stay open or awake. Taking 3 hour naps does not do wonders on getting to sleep after 8 PM easy.