Really Not Feeling It Right Now

As the days continue to move forward with scheduled activities inside my home this weekend and not having a shower yesterday, I had my shower this afternoon at 2 PM with RK at the helm helping me today.  This was her Sunday to work with me from Almost Family.  It has been a weekend of sorts and not quite the best weekend.  I am not even sure if I can even face the week with my great smile and upbeat attitude because it sure is not upbeat right now even thinking of my dad’s upcoming visit this coming Wednesday or Thursday while he travels from AR to WI to go to Milwaukee to be with his daughter, my sister, and his wife, at my sister’s home.  I am indeed excited to be seeing my dad but heart is feeling tons of emotions right now.  It has nothing to do with hormones being off or anything either like I first thought on Thursday and Friday of last week.  I know I am not really looking forward to tomorrow.  I just want to be left alone right now.  Yes, I am having a bad weekend.  I do not want to leave my apartment and face the other tenants right now with answers to their questions.  I am just one of those who want to be left alone right now.  I do not want IDS or Almost Family coming tomorrow but the schedule has to go on despite how I feel now.