I am sitting here tonight, realizing that I need to say that I have not written for a few days. I am doing my best at keeping up with writing my diary, writing it, and then plan on posting it as soon as I can. Sometimes it doesn’t get posted right away like yesterday’s posting. This one is another one I post immediately. I use Microsoft Word or Pages to write my thoughts down, make documents, and go from there. It is not easy being a diarist. Writing your diary online where the world can see it can be scary, exciting, and fulfilling at the same time or how your day has gone from the moment I wake up in the morning.
I have spoken to my dad through a text today. I had to ask him where he stood politically because there is a lot going on right now that makes me cry. I stand in the position I am because of my beliefs in the Father, Son, and Holy Spirit/Ghost, and I do not like what is going on politically. It is getting bad, and spiritually, prophecy is being fulfilled like the Bible says. Yes, I read the Bible, and I NEED to get back to doing devotionals and reading Bible verses again. I have been lacking in that part of my life lately. Tomorrow I will begin again and that is a promise. As far as politics go these days, I have no control what is happening, and I am glad I am not a Politian. I agree on doing what is right even though I feel I am a whistle blower. I do what is right where I live when a tenant or a group of tenants are not abiding the rules of living here. Right now tenants are not wearing masks to protect themselves from the Coronavirus. I have been wearing my mask because I have kidney disease and doing dialysis. What is happening politically is happening according to prophecy being fulfilled. Jesus’ return is soon.
I am up later than my normal bedtime. It is Labor Day weekend and DKF is not coming tomorrow. I can sleep in and rest, get things done online before going to sleep as well as in the morning. I have not started my painting project yet.
I have been taking my new regimen of meds for anxiety, panic, and depression for six days now. I’ve noticed a difference in my emotions, and they have calmed down. I still have panic from time to time, but it is getting better. I do not have the heat in my face or ears as much now. I panicked some on Thursday because I couldn’t find something on my phone, and when I did find it, it WAS after I made a phone call to Festival Foods. I texted DKF about what I couldn’t get on my list, and I texted her one text. Yes, I still panicked, but it felt different. I believe I am on the road to recovery now, and that is a beautiful feeling. I am more awake, alert, and not taking afternoon naps on the couch sitting up. Not as tired. Also, I am happier. I Being on 20 mg of Celexa and 50 mg of Trazodone and being weaned off Clonazepam; I am on the right road now. I feel great!