In a while Rick will be here to help me with my homework for Accounting 1 and Accounting Orientation. I have a busy day tomorrow…I will be taking my 1st test for Accounting in the morning so I will have to leave an hour earlier for the bus than usual. KAW and I will not connect tomorrow for the bus anyway at 8:30 a.m. as she has an appointment in the morning. I am tired but feeling okay.
10:30 p.m.
Here I am wanting to get to Dear Diary but I can’t right now. I can not sign in for some reason. Anyway, I have not written in my journal here everyday due to the fact that I am very busy. I will keep trying. Dear Diary must be congested right now. Who knows. It is just frustrating sometimes!
10:30 p.m.
Here I am wanting to get to Dear Diary but I can’t right now. I can not sign in for some reason. Anyway, I have not written in my journal here everyday due to the fact that I am very busy. I will keep trying. Dear Diary must be congested right now. Who knows. It is just frustrating sometimes!
When it comes to making up my mind, I see that I bounce back and forth from wanting something and not wanting something or the other way around. Yesterday I could not make up my mind about having Rick over or not at a certain time and finally I settled on having him meet me at school and coming home with me to do some schoolwork. It seems that all I see Rick for mostly is for studies and homework. I see him on Saturdays and Wednesday nights at prayer meeting or church. Otherwise I see him during my hours of study and homework. It does not seem fair but I want our relationship to work no doubt. I do not want to give up school because of a relationship and Rick won’t let me, which is a good thing. I have friends and peers who will not allow me to give up my education and studies. I want our relationship to work. Oh yeah, I see Rick on Sundays for Bible study in my home as well. That is why I have him meet me at school every now and then on a Tuesday or Thursday or both days. Do I feel overwhelmed? Regarding Rick and I, I do sometimes but mostly the overwhelming feeling is due to school and homework. That is why I want this relationship to work. Rick and I support each other. Oh … that reminds me … Rick and I talked this morning and he seemed disappointed that we were not going to be seeing each other possibly. He’ll get over it like always. I do need to spend time with my friends from school. If he tries to come between me and my friends by telling me I can not be with my friends, he is history big time.
Regarding my boyfriend I can not make up my mind ’bout us sometimes. I want our relationship to work and go as far as a relationship goes but I need my space every now and then, too…just like Rick. Rick is a wonderful guy and he takes good care of me and my cat Emilee when care is needed and wanted. He misses me when we do not chat or see each other, which I can understand and relate but space is needed and wanted. I am glad that Rick sees it.
An ex-girlfriend of Rick’s is being a pain right now. why is she in the picture all of a sudden? Do I have a right to feel uncomfortable about this…I believe I do! This ex-girlfriend knows where Rick lives, his phone number, and his e-mail address. She and a friend of hers…are nothing but chronic liars and b****** in the first place. I went to school with one of the girls and all this one girl is a big, loud mouth that lies and does things to get attention…!!!!
I was at church when I noticed that I had my period when I ran the bathroom…noticing that my panties were damp with my period. I felt embarrassed and silly because I miss counted my days and I did not have a maxi pad with me. I had to fold up some toilet paper and stick it in my panties until I got home to changge. The good thing was the fact that my panties did not get too damp. I had caught it in time. That is a good thing. I did not do anything today except go to church with Rick and Jacky. I was picked up at 8:50 a.m. and I got back home at 12:30 p.m.. I got out of my church clothes and into my pajamas, and laid all day on my futon all day long…getting up to change my maxi pad off and on. I noticed that I took a nap around 3 p.m. to the time my phone rang and Rick was calling me. He had just woke up from his nap and called me. 10:49 p.m. – I am still up and it is Saturday night. I think I will sign off now and write more later.
I Got My Period Today!
For my online friends who smoke, this does not pertain to you at all. Today, while I was walking to class, I saw a young woman walking with an unlit cigarette in her mouth and I thought that it looked uncool and definitely unappetitizing. I wanted to throw up after seeing her because I did not think it was so cool or pleasant to see. I saw, in her eyes, that she thought that it was cool and fascinating to be smoking a cigarette. In this case, be smoking a cigarette anyway. My grandparents used to smoke but after some time they quit and it took forever for the smell of smoke from smoking cigarettes to leave the house. They even had to repaint the walls because the white walls turned yellow and dingy brown. It was gross. For you smokers out there that think it is cool to smoke, it’s not. You can do it in the privacy of your own home anytime you like – even if I am there – but it is untasteful and I do not care for it. I think it is uncool and unpleasant and horrible. Do you not realize that smoking creates more health problems and it is deadly in the long run? Come on, people…not everyone smokes so please do not make it horrible for us non-smokers. Secondhand smoking is twice as bad as smoking a cigarette directly! YUCK!
Attention Smokers!
My Weekend As a Whole This weekend I slept all Saturday morning and woke up at 2 p.m. feeling really refreshed and ready to begin my day. I did not, however, feel like getting cleaned up so it was my grungy day all day long as well as my pajama day. I knew, that homework would take most of my time the entire weekend. Sunday – I woke up at 8 a.m. refreshed and ready for my day. I got up, took a five minute shower and washed my hair, got dressed in working clothes, and got my laundry put together and done in the laundry room, and did my homework. Rick came over right after work and helped me with my schoolwork. I did not finish until 6:30 p.m. or so. Kristi’s Thoughts at the Moment WHat are my thoughts at the moment? Hmmm?? When will I retire to bed for the night. I tihnk sleeping until 2 p.m. yesterday afternon really screwed up my sleeping pattern somewhat for a while. I do not feel real tired now and I have school in the morning. I even pulled out my futon and made it into a bed for the weekend and I am planning on sleeping on it tonight. Here I go again…that pattern of sleeping on the futon and not in my bed. What kind of life is that? I have found it cooler at night lately, too. Good night Everyone Even though I am not tired and not ready for bed, my computer will retire now.
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9:45 p.m.
I am sitting here waiting for my friend KAW to call me and then I am going to go to bed. I have a test tomorrow in Accounting Spreadsheets and I need to get a lot of rest. I do have to admit that I am tired right now and ready to go to sleep right here at the computer desk but I want to cuddle with my cat Emilee Cuddles and mmy stuffed white dog, Noah Ark. As silly as it may seem, I still cuddle with a stuffed animal at night from time to time. I feel safe and secure and whatever my age of thinking may be at the time. No matter which age I am thinking at the time, I do think Emilee acts funny when Noah is in bed with us. I do not think she is jealous. There is no reason to be since Noah Ark is just a stuffed white doggie I named Noah Ark because he is all white and clean. I wonder how much longer Noah will be white, lol…white and I do not get along.
A Quick Look At Yesterday
Yesterday, my anxiety was up for some reason. A lot of pressure building up so slowly that sitting down for five minutes was difficult and terrible. My instructor let me leave early.
I am still working on a plan of change here…please be patient. I know I am not today, lol!
