The memories of my grandfather is not flooding in so quickly that I can not handle them but they are coming and going as I see pictures that are sent to me via e-mail from my mom’s husband. I have a couple of BIG boxes in my bedroom filled with pictures I would like to go through in the next few weeks before March 31, 2003 as we will have a memorial service for him here in my hometown and then take his ashes to be buried next to my grandma – his wife – who died in 1997 of October. As the memories come in, I yet do not cry. I smile instead. Will I have the “big” cry yet? I do not know but we shall see.