I have yet to go to my appoinment and I have an hour and a half before I go. I was up late last night and since I was up late, I thought writing in my journal here would have helped calm some of the anticipation I have been dealing with in regards to this doctor’s appointment I do have. Has it helped? Kind of and sort of. I cannot say it helped entirely because that is all that I thought of all night long and had dreams I can not even explain this afternoon. Honestly, I just feel the anticipation growing inside me that even time has grown on its slowest speed possible driving me to no end in regard to the day I am playing now. I personally wish it would just go away and never come back but at least the anticipation is a good feeling this time around.