Changes are Going to Be Made — More of Them

I have been dealing with some issues and those issues are very personal and private and may not all be shared here for good reason. I have had to walk away from friends and walking away from friends is something I have not done before until the beginning of the year. I know who my “true” friends are and those friends are here to stay and those friends know who they are, and it does include my DD friends on my friends’ list, but it is not my friends at DD I am talking about. I am talking about my friends who I see and talk to everyday or close to it. There are some friends who I have considered close and trustworthy but a couple of weeks ago or so now I have come to the realization that maybe some of those friends are not trustworthy anymore so I have been walking away from them to a point, and those friends will have to understand why without me having to explain why because i feel I need to explain myself to no one anymore. My life is my life and my life is to be respected even by me and me alone in most cases. Yes, I have issues to deal with and yes I am going to counseling for my issues, and no, no one has been going to my sessions with me anymore except for my caseworker and that is it for now. I have been told some things that have taken my heart right out of me and has been stepped on out of spite or anger and I have told myself I do not need friends like that but it has bothered me to the point that tears have been shed and I have not shared anymore of my feelings with many people like I have done so in the past because it just is not fair to me or to the other people. My problems need to remain where they are — here in my home and if they do not involve someone, that someone is not involved anymore; I also feel I have missed something today but I am not going to worry about it because I need time for myself. There are changes that are going to be made and more of them are going to be changed from this day forward whether my friends like them or not. I know who my “true” friends are and it is going to remain that way for the time being. Let me deal with my own problems and I just ask those who do not respect my feelings, go away and I will deal with you later.

Author: ksmiley

As a diarist and blogger, please bear with me as I continue to upgrade my blog as time moves forward. Thank you.

2 thoughts on “Changes are Going to Be Made — More of Them”

  1. with friends like mine, who needs enemies. i’ve shot and killed people that were really friends, but now if you lick my boots well enough, you are what i consider a real friend or if you enjoy belittling others in order to seem important you are also a real friend.

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