Kristi Karnopp's Diary & Blog

Honestly, the 9/11 terror has not ended completely. It is still going on full force because of the war that is going on in other countries. We have Americans who are over there fighting a very big fight. Everyday – morning, noon, and night, I have been hearing of the progress of the war on the news or in the paper. I do have to admit that reading the paper is one source I get from other friends who read the paper. I don’t get the paper myself. Ever since I have taken the class Economics this past semester at BTC, I have been in tune with the news and the political realm of life and before the class I was not interested one bit and the news was NEVER watched but today the news is watched and listened to very carefully.

The other night I had been working on the computer, being on the internet, I was listening to the 10 p.m. news and I had listened to an security breach happening in our own city. Someone had broken in the water resevoir and cut the lock off andthe rumor of the water being tampered with the anthrax had frighened quite a few people here because we were not sure if the tampered water was our drinking water. The water was tested and the test was negative so there was nothing and again the drinking water was not tampered with.

As I sit here, a day later after hearing about this horrible deed, I wondered why someone would even think of something so horrible just to get in the news or in the paper or both. Some people, who are terrors are terrorists at heart i guess but that is my one opinion and not 100% the truth exactly. The person who did this act really got the attention he/she expected and now he is considered a terrorist!!

When I had the news the other night and the water was tampered with, I thought the worst. The worst was I had been drinking the water – quite a bit of it actually – and now I might be sick because of someone’s horrible deed. There are just some horrible people out there considered evil.

Hi – I got your comment on yesterday’s post and I wanted to let you know that i know what it is like to have a root canal! They can hurt depending on the severity of infection as well. It took the dentist last year five weeks to get everything done because he was not going to put my mouth through such a horrible ordeal at one time and anyway, it would have taken more then two visits. Honestly, the teeth that I had worked on yesterday could have been root canals because it really ached for a while and the ache was not dull whatsoever! The ache is still there but no tears are shed today. I know what you are going through, Michele.

When I could not see very well over a year ago for twelve years, I have to remember that the sun looked like, sometimes, a pasty yellow…not a real color. Ever since the day I could see well again, I have seen the pasty yellow of the sunlight for the first time today. The sunlight outside looks fake and painted in the sky instead of a friendly color. We are expecting thunderstorms to come through later so I am taking care of things on line right now instead of later tonight when time is more quiet. Anyway, I am still not feeling like my cheery self after yesterday’s visit to the dentist to take care of some cavities in my molar teeth on the left-bottom. The ache of my teeth is still there but not as bad as it was AFTER the novicaine and the feeling of being socked completely wore off. No tears today.

There was a cancellation at the dentist this afternoon and I had gotten a call from the dentist office to get a start on the dental work that needed to be done – yet two more visits left, but I have noticed that the worst of the dental work is done. Man on man, I felt like I was socked in the mouth and that it felt swollen but it wasn’t. Once the numbness and the feeling of being socked by someone wore off, the achy feeling of the teeth that were worked on had come into full swing and I felt like crying. Honestly…I am a wimp when it comes to aches and pains — I CAN NOT tolerate even the slightest ache. Finally, with the ache finally wearing off, I am feeling human again but come this Monday, with a scheduled appointment, I will be going to the dentist again to get some more teeth worked on.

It has been a lazy day for me all day long and now my day is done as far as writing in my journal here at Dear Diary goes. I have been nothing but lazy today watching television, napping, play games, and being on the internet a couple of times. I hope everyone had a good day.

I have slept a lot today. I slept until 11 a.m. this morning and then had awakened to the program called “The View” and Chasity Bono was the last guest on the show. I missed what was really discussed because it was the last five minutes of the program. Anyway, although as long as I don’t like Chasity’s lifesty;e, she did not look bad. I would not live Chasity’s lifestyle at all in my life of mine. Whatever, she is Sonny Bono’s and Cher’s daughter 100%.

I decided not to get dressed for the day and go anywhere today so I am staying home all day long and watch and listen to the television. The TV is in my living room and it is right behind me so I have to turn half way around to see what is going on. The newest cartoon on Disney called “Kim Possible” is now playing and then Doug and Pepper Ann. I’ve watched the first episode of “Kim Possible” over the weekend and it seems to have a lot things in it that I would not allow any of my kids, if I had any, to watch. So much bad television is coming into this world and it is getting worse. What ever happened to the good television programs? My opinion is that thee good television programs got erased with the times and that is why now they are in syndication on other channels.

I am becoming a television “junkie” now that I am out of school but I am very careful about what is watched.

My days at home have become day after day of the internet and chats with other people.

This is my day – a boring one!!!! Oh well…

OH MY…not yet sunset yet and it is dark with a dark cloud of bad weather coming my way here. I can not be on line any longer today…phooey. I had a lot to say today but I dare not tonight so I do not lose my computer from a lightening storm. I will write another day when weather is better. Sorry so short! Good bye for now.

Oh boy…my weekend was very quiet so far and it is going remain quiet the rest of the weekend. I have been busy with thinggs on my computer for the past three hours. Now that I am done with classes for the semester and until next Fall, I have more time on my hands to play on the computer and be online and I really don’t like that idea of being on the computer all the time. That is why I am on line during the evenings hours now. I have other things THAT need to be done before 8 p.m. and I don’t have the time to be on line much before that – and if I do have time, I am always here somewhere in the internet searching, reading, writing, etc…

Sorry this entry is very short.

For a while now I have been going to counseling – to a counselor I have known ever since I was a freshman in high school. Today’s session went well. I had talked to my counselor about how my stepfather made me feel a few days ago regarding Memorial Day and the 9-11 Attack on America. I also noticed to that my sessions have been great and my counselor himself has noticed I have been doing well. As we were exiting out of his office for me to catch my ride, I told him that I have not had to take my anxiety or depression meds – either three of them – for the longest time now, he patted me on the back and said that I am doing great. I don’t know how to feel except accomplishment and success.

I think now that I know what makes me very upset, I think now that I am in better control with my anxety and depression. I personally think that my stepfather is the reason why I have so much emotional upsets in my life. Just maybbe… hmmm.

Hmmm…I wonder where all of a sudden I have been feeling pressure when there has been no pressure to deal with. All has been fine or at least I think so anyway. What a life! LOL

For the last few days, with the weather being iffy – stormy, rainy, and cloudy, today is the first day of good, warm, and sunny weather we have experienced here in Wisconsin since Sunday. I think, even though I did avoid taking medication for depression and anxiety for the psat several weeks, the “not so good” weather has given me a slight change that is yet undated. Maybe that is where the pressures of life is all of a sudden coming up. Who knows…I surely don’t know. Oh well…I am fine now – just taking things not so lightly as I have in the past. Again, oh well!