April 6, 2008 – Entry 1

Okay, I was rudely awakened by a phone call at 8:30 a.m. this morning so I did not answer the phone. I do not like it when I get phone calls before 10 a.m. in the morning. I have yet to find a job and so when I do get that job, I do have to admit that that phone calls coming into my home will be limited more so I can go to bed early so I can get up early for work the next morning, and that means no more staying up past midnight — if sleep is easy to find the night before. To be very honest here, sleep has been kind of hard to find for the past few nights for some reason. I am always anxious I guess. Anyway, this person who had called me should know that I do not like calls before 10 a.m. as I have told her more than once not to call me before 10 a.m., and look what she does!! She never listens. She has not listened to me at all when I have told her to call my cell phone in an emergency. Some people just know how to upset me! Why do I hang around people who upset me?? I do not need it and I personally wish that people could get along with everyone but of course not everyone is going to get along with everyone. Again, wearing my heart on my sleeve, people getting along with everyone is just wishful thinking, and wishful thinking is in dreams, and I dream about peace all the time, and we won’t have perfect peace, except in God of course. Being rudely awakened at 8:30 this morning has gotten my head spinning about things that have been on my mind for a long time and I could write a whole chapter on all my spinning thoughts — honestly I can write several chapters on ny spinning thoughts.