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Sometimes I wonder what is wrong with RR. He is kind of quiet today and he is not telling me what is going on. If he tells me, he thinks that I will tell Kelly so he won’t tell me. I wish men would speak up as it is not healthy to hold it all in. We both have lives away from each other and if he wants to spend time alone with me, he needs to speak up. I am not mad but frustrated right now because RR’s demeanor is quiet and somewhat unusual. He was laughing eaerlier but befoore we went to pick our friends up, he was quiet and not talking much. I wonder what is bothering RR right now?

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Thanks Britani18!



Britani18 –

I would like to thank you for your kind comments at my journal. I do feel better today and will be taking it easy all day long. My nose does not feel stuffed up as much and it does not look as raw as it did, lol. Figure that one out… I will not worry about telling my neighbor at this time even though that does keep popping up and it wants to eat me alive! Kristi smiles!

Lovingly, Kristi “Ksmiley”

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I do have to admit that starting the 1st of August with a cold really stinks. What really stinks worse is my friend KAW has what I have too and when she and I chatted this morning she sounded horrible. I felt very badly but she told me she’ll be okay. Feeling sick for the past couple of days have been just plain awful and kind of gross. I am so glad that Dimetapp is working and doing the trick. My nose looks a little raw and red from blowing it like mad.

Even though I felt a little icky – not as bad as I felt yesterday, I went to Riverfront Athletic Club this morning at 10 a.m. to workout for an hour. Despite the perspiration and pushing I did, I fellt real good and thought that it would be best to workout the rest of the cold as much as I could before the weekend. Because I felt icky the past couple of days, I have been resting and taking it easy. That workout felt real GOOD!

I wanted to get together with my friend REB but we both decided, last night, we would get togethher another day.

I have seen some of my boyfriend Rick but the last couple of days it has been mostly by phone because I am not feeling so hot. Right now,, even though I am feeling better now, I had to take Tylenol for headache from sleeping so much because of the sedating affects of Dimetapp. Last night, strangely enough, my head felt like it was about to **pop** as it surely felt strange enough.

Yesterday’s Unwanted Experience Truly

I was not expecting any cmpany but I had heard a knock at my door. I answered it finding it was my neighbor wondering if I was mad at her, which I am not, and I told her just that. Because I was not feeling so good yesterday, I did not want any company really, and I could not tell her if she continued hanging around the troublemakers, I could not associate with her, but realizing that this information would go to the troublemakers, I am going to wait for another time – when I am not so cluttered in the mind. In a way, I feel like I am procastinating but how can I tell my neighbor??

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A Quick Vent

WHat is going on in my head right now? I can not figure it out right now as my head is clogged up from a nasty cold!

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This Dratted Cold!



I gpt a cold a couple of days ago… I do feel better than I did yesterday but I surely feel stuffed up and kind of crummy right this minute. Yuck! I want to be on line longer but a storm is heading our direction sometime soon and I WILL NOT be on line or have my comp up and running. Later…

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RAC



Starting Friday morning I will be working out at RAC = Riverfront Athletic Club to help lose weight which I have started since February. I am looking forward to working out and getting the excess weight I need off so I do not stress the kidney out.

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Here I am, on a Tuesday morning, waiting for noon to arrive when Rick will be here. I have a couple of things I need to do today but the heat is kind of bad today so I am limiting myself today and taking it easy. I am home now and have been since July 25th and I am feeling a little blah and good at the same time. Does it make sense?!! Ever since I have met Rick, my boyfriend now, I have been running around and hardly ever home and with what goes on around here, I would like to be away from home as much as possible, but I have a home to go to now and I feel safe in my home. I do have a life again! The only thing that bugs me is the fact of who I can trust now and who I can not trust. I did not want anyone to know I was going to be gone on vacation and almost whole building learned. Rick took care of Emilee while I was away on my trip from the 18th – 25th because I could not allow my friend to do it this time after finding out that she hangs around the “troublemakers” of this place I live in. It hurts my heart to even think of it but I do not appreciate being used or taken advantage of. What gets me now is the fact that I will not allow myself to take care of this neighbor’s cat anymore because of what this neighbor does. What hurts me more is the fact of another tenant who lives here does not even talk to me and acts as if she does not recognize me but then she is playing games because she also hangs with the “troublemakers”. I can not even call her anymore even for AVON orders because I can not trust her either. It can be horrible here at times and I am sorry I have to let some friends go in my life. You see, I have a life outside this place as well as here and I have two Christian friends I can trust annd then two others so that takes only four people I can talk to around here. I am a part, according to the “troublemakers” the group against them when “they” are the bad group in the first place. Do I feel sorry for the “triublemakers”? Nope! THey have chosen their road and I am not going to be a part of that road. I feel like Jesus Christ being mocked and taunted even though his experience was far greater than mine really. What really hurts my heart is the fact that RH is being bothered by the “troublemakers” to be a part of their group to be against me and my surrogate Mom. I told him if he did go that route, we will not be speaking to each other ever again and I will n0t have anything to do with him ever again. I have this feeling that it will happen sooner or later. He will be considered a backstabber then!!!!

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Today



I do have to admit that the idea of me being pregnant, according to a few tenants around here where I live is now getting funny. I hate the idea of it but I know the truth as I am not that type or kind of person anyway. The only thing is that this kind of gossip is definitely upsetting my father as he too knows that I am not that kind of person. It makes me sick to know that one of my neighbors, who I thought was trustworthy, is no longer trustworthy and I will not allow her to take care of Emilee again. She, Emilee, really loves my boyfriend Rick and he took care of Emilee for me while I was in Arkansas. Anyway Emilee was very skitterish when this certain neighbor came about and afteer figuring things out, I can not trust this neighbor in any conversation we have anymore because she hangs around the “troublemakers” of this place.

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HAPPY BIRTHDAY REB



Today is my friend REB’s 44th birthday. I would, even though he does not have a comp or e-mail, like to wish REB a

HAPPY Birthday

REB loves the Dallas Cowboys and they are white and blue.

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Travels All Done!



It is good to be home and with my friends and family again. The whole building knew I was gone again and that really irritates me. Some people are not my friends here except for two Christiam friends and then a couple of other people. I hate this place I live but it is my home and no one is going to drive me away from here EVER! My travels are done and I am home safe and sound. Emilee was a good girl while I was away and that was very good. Starting today, reading of other diaries and writing in my own has begun again! YEAH!

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