Kristi Karnopp's Diary & Blog

I am not going to be on long but I had to keep my promise as to writing in my journal later after getting home from school. It is 5:30 p.m. now and it is kind of rainy and thunderstorms are likely tonight. We already had a little bit of lightning and thunder this early afternoon. Mark had taken me grovery shopping at Woodman’s on the other side of town – the north side and as we were coming back I saw lightning light up a part of town nearby my apartment complex. Then, shortly after I got home, I had heard rumbles of thunder but not loud claps but thunder is yet coming tonight throughout the night. I hate to be on line or have my computer up and running, even asleep really, while it is storming outdoors. The sun has finally set for the night though.

In a while I am going to hop in the shower and allow the heat of the water hit my tired body and get cleaned up a bit. I need to wash my hair for tomorrow. Since I get up early Mondays and Wednesdays (6:30 a.m.), I do not take a shower or make excessive noise while other neighbors are still asleep or trying to. Our apartment complex here has real thin walls and noise does carry here. Sometimes, with the neighbor who is not able to hear well, i can hear her television on in her apartment as if it is out in the hallway and she is across the hall from me. The insolation must not be that good here.

I am not really in the mood to write much of anything but I thought I would write a little something before going to school since it is the first day of October. On the fifth, my neice is twelve years old, and then on the seventh, my brother and his wife have an anniversary, and then on the fifteenth, my brother has a birthday. I will be leaving for school in about a half an hour and to get help with my algebra. Yes, I have run into a snag with my homework. Not so fun. Oh well, I am not going to worry about it too much. This is my first entry of the day, and I plan on being back to write more today definitely. I have to get ready to go. Good bye for now.

I thought that today was going to start out fine and end up not fine. In other words, take a turn for the worst but it hasn’t, YEAH! I do have to admit that Mondays can be manic Mondays, just like the old song from a group I have forgotten the name of. Is the Bangles? Now I think of it! That’s it, YES! I have learned that not all Mondays are manic Mondays. It really depends on how you perceive it I guess. Today is NOT a manic Monday for me at all and I am sitting here at school taking a break from ALL my learning right now. I had awakened with confidence that my day was going to be just fine even though getting up at 6:30 a.m. is not always my cup of tea anymore – even for school. If I have to get up at 6:30 a.m., then I will, which means that school is the reason why I get up early on Mondays and Wednesdays. I would sleep in if I could but getting all the time in I can at school really makes a difference in your learning.

I think I can understand that Monday is not the best day of the week for many people because after a two day break from things, it can be difficult getting into a pattern even though you have done the same pattern for a long time in your job, schedule, and ordinary daily routine. I know that at times I get down and or severely depressed after being the same routine over and over again and there is a break inbetween. A good example is, this past semester I had about two months in the summer without a routine but plans, and it seemed to screw things up for me in the long run because the pattern was not the same. I had gotten depressed after seeing all my family this summer because the routine was not there anymore and I anticipated school to begin too soon that anxiety and depression set in for a couple of weeks or so. No, this is not a manic Monday at all. Not for me, anyway.

Here I am, at 7:30 p.m., not in the mood to really talk or write, but here I am writing and talking to a friend on MSN. I really am not in the mood to talk to anyone tonight, lol, but I am talking to my friend Janessa. The second I got on line, Janessa beeped on in at MSN and starting to gab with me and I am not really in the mood to gab much but maybe a little bit. I am tiried and ready for school tomorrow and it will not come any slower than it is. It could not go any slower really, LOL. Here I am tonight talking to my friend Janessa in choppy sentences and feeling real weird just talking. Tired is the word tonight. Today was definitely a lazy day for me. I am all talked out now. Good night

I do know, from talking to Mom, she needs to walk fifty feet without having two people helping her. She wants to come home tomorrow (Monday). Prayers are welcome and a need.

Well, my afternoon has been fairly quiet and not terrbly exciting. I took a nap this morning and woke up about noon. My snoring had awakened me, LOL Even though I took the unexpected nap, I will be able to sleep through the night. It is a school night. I do have school in the morning and I have to get up early and leave by 7:30 a.m.. I did not procrastinate any longer after 2 p.m. regarding my shower and I feel clean and my blonde hair is washed and clean as well. After I had gotten dressed in clean pajamas, Emilee came to me to see if I passed the cleanliness test she always gives me after a shower or bath. My hair, still wet, definitely passed the cleanliness test because she played with it. She even pulled it, LOL. Now I am ready for my school week. I have a busy day tomorrow. I have three classes to attend tomorrow and Wednesday, and two the rest of the week, Tuesday, Thursday, and Friday.

All this past week, up to yesterday even, I was tired at 7 a.m. and wanted to go back to be, but I pushed it anyway. I felt that I did not have one of the best weeks but still did what I needed to do despite how I felt throughout the entire week. I belive that mentally I did not have the best week. Everything was coming into focus so terribly slow that it was kind of embarrassing to me. Yesterday, being Saturday and a day of fellowship with other church memberss, the Bible study I was at even seemed to be slow and all the voices seemed so far away like whispers. Today I had awakened at 7 a.m. this morning ready to get up and going even though the sky did not have any sun yet, and at 10:15 a.m. the sun is not shining at all. How pasty everything seems!

I am in my pajamas sttill, at the hour of 10 a.m. in hopes to have a shower in sometime today, lOL. I am debating on the time (an issue I deal with often on the weekends) to when I take a shower. I think I am procrastinating. LOL A lazy day indeed!

I had just gotten word that Nellie is not feeling all that great today but she is yet not sure if she is going to be discharged from the hospital. I have a feeling she will not be discharged from the hospital but she does, she will be one happy person to get away from that horrible, sick place. She did not want to be there in the first place. I will keep up as much as I can on Mom’s progress (when I hear anything new).

I am asking for prayer for my adoptive mom. She is in the hospital right now, in hopes that she will be discharged tomorrow (Sunday). She had fallen on Thursday night in her apartment and she was taken to the hospital. She deals with pain on a daily basis as well and is in some pain with her back. I do know that she has been having pain regarding one of her knees as well but I am not sure if the pain she is feeling right now is also geared towards the pain she is experiencing. She did not break anything when she fell from what I understand when I had spoken to Mom Nell on Friday morning before I left for school. I had also spoken to Mom Nell last night and she said she was hoping she would have been discharged from the hospital today but it did not happen.

Saturdays are my days of rest and relexation and go to church. This is the first time I have been on my computer since last night before 12 midnight. It is 5:45 p.m. here on Saturday late afternoon. I am tired and I did take a nap as soon as I got home from church and potluck. It was not a long day but it definitely has been one of those days of confusion and mystery.