I have been so busy with school lately that finding time for myself has been somewhat difficult. This week has been hectic but lived. It is late and time to go to bed. I am listening to the radio on line KFSG. I am really enjoying the listening but my brain has shut down somoe time back, LOL I am tired and definitely ready for bed now. It is 10:30 p.m. and I do have to go to church tomorrow. I will write again tomorrow for sure, Good night.
Another yawn coming. I think I am going to sign off by saying good night and I will be back sometime tomorrow after my appointment. I will be getting my new leg brace tomorrow afternoon, YEAH! I am very excited about that. I have been wearing a leg brace for six years now and this leg brace is my third one.
I have this feeling inside that makes me wonder if something is up or isn’t right? Well, I have this feeling that a certain friendship is really a friendship or does not really exist. That scares me sometimes when I really think about it in depth and have seen how this particular friend acts out of habit. I know people do things to get attention sometimes and I know of a person who really did that very thing while she lived here at Teamster Manor. Just the other day I had a feeling that this particular friend of mine, if she is a “true” friend, that she wants me to come between her and my friend Mark who once dated her thanks to me who introduced them one evening in my home. I do, somewhat, regret ever putting my friend, if she is a “true” friend, and my friend Mark together because of the trouble it caused. I felt like I was stuck in the middle. I am no longer feeling stuck in the middle because Mark and my friend are no longer dating, but I still get questioned, “have I talked ot Mark?” The other night I had a feeling that jealousy was playing a part in my friend’s life. Mark and I have been good friends for ten years now and friends is all our relationship is. I love Mark, yes, but only as a dear, close, friend, like a sister to a brother. That is how far our relationship is and it has been maintained for ten years! I do not want to date Mark for one good reason and that is, we are two people who just connect because we have some things in common. If my friend is jealous, she has something to work out and I can not say anything further than that. i just have a feeling that something does not feel right and I hate those feelings even though they have been happening a lot lately. Did I make any sense?
For the Men – this entry may not be to your likes to read as it is a person woman thing, but if you do not care of the personal stuff written, you can definitely read on.
I have my first yeast infection and now I am going to treat it with a cream that will fight the infection off. Now I wonder, in my mind, if I have had an yeast infection in the past but did not know the symptoms. I am being treated for my first yeast infection. I am slightly embarrassed because I had to call my adoptive mom and ask her where to apply the cream. “BLUSH” I do not know why I am embarrassed even the slightest because again it was my first time.
I have had a long day and I am tired. Not a whole lot can be said tonight really, especially 9 P.M. this evening of September 25, 2002. “YAWN” i think, as short as my journal is tonight, going to say good night now. I wish i could take the time write something more than this, but I am so tired. Good night everyone.
For some odd reason, even though I have written something yesterday, I feel like I have not been here for a while. LOL. I just wrote an entry yesterday! I think school is getting to me, LOL! Sorry this is so short but bed time has arrived and I do have a couple of tests to take tomorrow and I want to do well on them so getting a good night’s rest is a need here. Good night.
I was going to write in my journal this morning when I had a few minutes at school but I had forgotten my passwords briefly because I had them changed for a few minutes. Now that I have that squared away, I can actually write in my journal now but I am going to have only one journal entry for the 23rd. Anyway, I had left school at 11 a.m., missing my Algebra class because I felt horrible this morning but I had go to go in to see if I would be okay after getting started for my day. sometimes I worry about things for nothing and my health needed to be checked out. At least my kidney counts are fine this month and I can go on with my school days as planned. It does pay to be heathy, doesn’t it? Well, anyway, talking to my instructor this afternoon when I got home from getting my blood work done for the month, and learned that the class just had a test review and I had a short review before I left in the Special Needs Lab at school. When I had gotten my lab work results, my heart was relieved that everything was fine and all the blood work was in the normal ranges, I could go on with my day as usual, and I do feel a little better emotionally. See, I sometimes worry about things for nothing, LOL No wonder my blood pressure was slightly elevated this morning when I woke up. I had worked up something to worry about. I have to go for now and get to studying for a test for math tomorrow and then get ready for my first algebra test Wednesday which I am looking forward to.
Remember yesterday I had said that I was going to combine all my kournals into one? Well, my mind was changed again today. My friend, Velvetdazzle, was again bored and wanting something to do and she wanted to know if I wanted to have the other journals done as well. I told her to go ahead and help me with the “new” look for my journals and she is now working on my school journal. The combining of journals, after giving it some thought before she had asked me what I would like done, just was not going to be really fit ALL of the journals. I can see my regular daily journal and my spiritual journal being combined here but the other two, my school and story journal just will not fit here very well. I can keep up with all of the journals anyway and if anyone wants to visit them anytime by accient or by word of mouth which would be my mouth. That is the change of plans.
My day has been great. When Janessa left this morning, I had the rest of the day to myself except for the few minutes my friend Mark dropped by to show me his new truck and give me a short ride to see how it felt for riding. When I saw the truck, I fell in love with it immediately. It looks goregous for a man;s truck. You probably know where my mind was at the moment, right? WRONG! The color, which I thought was going to be gaudy and displeasing to the eye, but when I saw the truck from a disatance, I just fell in love with that truck. It made his other truck, although I loved the rasberry color, look so rusty and older than it really was to be. I can not say that the truck is really red because it is not red. It does have red in it but not the red color I was expecting it to be. After getting a quick ride around the block, Mark dropped me off at home to my apartment where I was once again alone with my cat Emilee and rested the rest if tthe day watching movies on the Lifetime channel.
It was during the mobie called Texas Cadet Murder I had decided to take a quick bath and get cleaned up for the next couple of days. I had planned on taking a shower this morning while Janessa was still sleeping but i decided to wait it out until evening. I am now cleaned and in my pajamas for the rest of the night and ready for bed.
I am still raving, inside my head, on how beautiful my DD pages look here. Velvetdazzle did a GREAT job and now I have a place for ALL my thoughts now instead of having a specific journal for specific things. I love the colors, the border, the special accents that come right along with this new look. I am never going to grow tired of this look whatsoever. It is too beautiful and comforting all at the same time. I even have an idea for an addition to my journal here. Why not talk about my cat Emilee who is right now being a catwho is playing with her tail, LOL. I just LOVE the new look Velvetdazzle has surprised me with yesterday morning. She did a GREAT job even though I have already said this a sentence or two back. The colors are soft and beautiful and the angel border is just perfect for other thoughts in a spiritual sense. Someties I wonder how I would do without a particular someone, but usually that is never a real wonder. I have spoken to Velvetdazzle many times and she is a pleasant person to talk to. She was bored the other evening (Friday) that she willing took the time to do my journal here giving it a special look. She has some real neat ideas for things and I wish everyone would take the time to know other people outside their family and close friends because there are still some real decent people out there in the world yet. The world is not that bad now, is it?
