Kristi Karnopp's Diary & Blog

It is going on 11 a this morning and I am at home and not at school today. The television is on behind me while I listen to the commericals between the program Murder, She Wrote. I love that show even though it has been off the air and no more shows are being made. My mom and I are watchers of Murder, She Wrote. She works as a teacher and she has her program taped for her to watch later on in the week when she is available and I watch it when I have the chance – when I am at home and not at school or running errands. Because the shows are now repeats from when it first started to when the show went off the air a few years ago. Both Mom and I were both disappointed that the show went off the air but there was nothing we could do about it but watch the show in syndicate on A&E (Arts & Entertainment). Now you are getting to know a little bit about me as far as to what I like.

My last day of school is on Monday but I am not 100% sure if I need to go to school on Tuesday to make sure everything is done and in as far as homework goes. I have had a very busy semester and I have been having mixed feelings about school ending. I want it to end and I don’t want it to end…that is confusing, don’t you think? I am going to see my brother next month and I am excited about going to see him and then seeing my dad and stepmom and sister later in the summer so I have a good reason to be happy to see school end foro the summer for me, but as far as my feelings not wanting school not to end, I just have been learning some real neat stuff and I want to learn more and just reading my books will NOT be all I need to learn. Oh hoow confusing!!! I am happy and sad at the same time. Am I strange?

I keep repeating myself! Sorry about that everybody. I have a mind that keeps going to and fro from one thing to another and I have my mind o school.

I am writing awfully late tonight. It is 10:50 p.m. here right now and it isi getting real quiet around here. I wonder why, lol. Not much is happening right now except for the fact that my precious little girl Emilee Cuddles is telling me it is time for bed. Sorry this entry is so short tonight. I will try to write in my journal earlier tomorrow if I have a chance to get on line or if the weather is decent. Good night friends.

Excuse me for today’s entry being short and sweet compared to my previous entries. I was not planning on coming on line to write in my journal here tonight but get on my computer to do some Business Law studying for the final exam that is on Monday, May 20, 2002. Actually, with the weather being soon rainy and possible thunderstorms on the way here in most of Wisconsin, I was not going to get on my computer at all really. I got some studying done at school this morning but not a whole lot because I could not stay all day long as I usually do on Monday’s and Wednesday’s. I had an appointment this afternoon at 2:30 p and I had to leave early from Business Law to run to that appointment as well as get a urine specimen done for my doctor in Madison, Wisconsin because two weeks ago I had suffered an urinary tract infection. I had to get that done because I had just finished taking the medication/antibiotics for the UTI. Excuse me for being gross. I have to run now. All my e-mails and writing of e-mails are done for now and I have some studying yet to do. More another day…tomorrow hopefully. Good night and good bye for now.

To All DD Writers,

It has been my pleasure being here at DD for the past months I have begun writing my thoughts – personal, boring, short or long, etc… since I have been here. My note to all DD writers here does not mean that I am planning on leaving DD to go elsewhere or quit writing my thoughts. I am still going to be here as often as I can, even if I have time to write a short entry on some days or not be able to write anything one day. I have loved it here – reading other entries. Some entries have made my cry, laugh, relate and understand, appreciate, and most of all get to know other writer’s via e-mail. I haven’t met anyone at DD that has not been cruel or said anything that bothered me in any way. Who created such a fine place to come to, I would like to say thanks for creating such a fine place. This place is a special place for me to be at. I do have to admit that I will never share very personal thoughts that the world needs not to know except for me and my Heavenly Father. I am a young woman who believes in God, yes, and I do know that not everyone I know is a believer in Christ or even have the wants to know Him. I have found a special place here as well as in my spiritual world and I enjoy both places. I know that not everyone would agree with me but I do have a special place in my heart for many things that are good.

Well friends, I don’t know where else to go to write my personal thoughts that I find worth sharing to friends and I am still glad to this day I have stumbled to DD on the Internet by accident several months back – a year ago in 2001. It is time for me to go and get other things done. It is getting late on this day of May 14th now and I do have classes tomorrow – well actually I won’t be attending Economics until Thursday morning at 8:30 a.m…YEAH I have not missed a class yet – except those classes that have been unable to be helped and there was three times I missed Business Law because of the instructor not able to be there, and I missed Economics one day because we had a big water link because the main water pipe broke and al classes in the afternoon after 11 a.m. were cancelled. I will be writing again tomorrow sometime or real soon. Good bye for now.

I can not quite explain to you what happened this morning in just a few words. Before I left for my counseling appointment with my counselor, I had called the city’s bus company regarding the bus driver’s angry attitude. i don’t know what happened after the bus driver got done with work or during her day but I did see her driving one of the routes while I was walking about the downtown area heading to the bus depot after my counseling appointment and quick errand to the credit union. If I find out anything about what happened, I might share it with my Dear Diary friends but all names will be anominous at ALL times. Even though this bus driver seemed angry with me twice alrady, I don’t want her to lose her job or think that I don’t like her. She is a nice person underneath the exterior of her being. She is a believer – a Christian woman who might be dealing with some issues in her life.

My day is over as far as school is concerned but I am sitting at home practically thinking about today and the next two school days I have left. I am not going to be at school on Wednesday after 12 noon so I will be missing my classmates in Economics but I have it under control so I will NOT miss any class time. I have not missed any of my classes! COOL! Also, I have been thinking about riding the bus home from school after 3 p.m.. The bus driver, no names given seemed to be angry about something and I know I did not do anything wrong. Sometimes I wish people would get help for their anger or hostility – especially after the fact that they know they have troubles with their anger in life. I feel intiminated to some degree – afraid of this bus driver and is bigger than me. This bus driver scares me half to death and I am almost afraid of riding her bus! Everytime I ride her, which was the past two times, my anxiety is raised some and it is scary – very scary. My mind goes back to that situation and it is driving me up a wall! Other then that, my day has gone well and surprisingly F A S T !!!!

THIS NOTE IS TO ALL MOTHER’S HERE AT DEAR DIARY TO WISH THEM ALL A HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY. HAPPY MOTHER’S DAY TO ALL YOU MOTHERS OUT THERE IN THE INTERNET WORLD!!!

Over a week ago I had run across a poem book titled, I Love You, Mom when I was visiting the Waldenbooks in our city’s mall and it seemed to grab my heart on the very person who has been my surrogate Mom for five years now. I had gotten two of the books – one for my mom in New Mexico to send to her as soon as I can find the chance. Nellie Mom had her daughter from Illinois come for a visit and take her out to brunch at the Olive Garden in the later part of the morning. About 4:30 p, Nellie Mom had called me to let me know she had just gotten home and I had asked her if she wouldn’t mind if I went down to her place to give her her gift and we met in her place. I handed her the bag the book was in and she opened it up and took the book out and saw the title of the book and opened it up and saw it was filled with poems. She loves poems! I had gotten her a wonderful gift and she loved it! We had talked briefly in her place while she took a look at the poem book and the personal enscription I had written among several of the poems which she told me aakes a book more special. As I was sitting there and we were talking, Nellie Mom kept looking at the poem book at the various poems and re-reading my personal notes which made me feel a little embarrassed because no one has even paid so much attention to what I have written in such a long time. It seems that Nellie Mom pays attention to what I write and what I say without me feeling that she pushes it aside and forgets about it until a later date. I have found myself very comfortable with Nellie Mom and feeling safe and secure with her.

I was not expecting to go to school today but after yesterday’s setback of plans changing, I ought to go today. I did get a lot done for a change. I got more done than I would if I was sitting at home lazying around and sleeping ALL day long. That is what I did thiis afternoon after I got home from school before noon. Honestly, still feeling like I could sleep a week! SMILE…

It has been unusually quiet today around here. This weekend I am taking care of my friend’s cat while she is spending the weekend with her Mom out of town. Her cat, Oreo is one smart cat and very fantastic as far as personality. I do have to admit that Oreo’s personality is much different than Emilee’s – my cat. Oh well, Emilee is one special cat though.

I have plans this weekend to go to church, do homework, read, write, and chat on line. Otherwise I will be relaxing and being with friends if I can find the time.

It is almost time for me to leave school for the day – weekend. YEAH! My friend will be out of class in a short while. I am not terribly excited about leaving as I feel I just got here but I have been here before 8:30 a.m.. Oh well…that’s life. I have homework to do when I get home and that is all that matters. I have four case problems to do for Business Law that I already have yet not handed in on time…oops

Will Write More Later Again