I really love the new look that AO did for me. It looks great! It is springy and beautiful and it does bring my spirits up even more. Yesterday was a better day…thankfully! Today seems a little iffy but hey! I am at school going to go to my two classes and I am thinking of staying an extra hour today and leave at 12 noon. I might change my mind before then…oh well.
I really do not have a lot to say at this hour of 9 p.m.. I can tell you that I was busy with school work and making needed phone calls in order to understand things throughout my day. It was a beautiful day. I did not go anywhere today…stayed home ad did my homework for Oral Communications, and took a bath about 4:30 p.m. so I could be ready for tomorrow which is a school day. It was a good day. It was better than yesterday..that’s for sure! I am glad that I took the time to vent as I am only human like everyone else. Today was a good day. More another time – tomorrow for sure.
Okay, yesterday to have school/classes resume today, but when 10 a.m. rolled around, everything around me seemed strange and overwhelming that I wanted to cry and hide. Nothing in class was making much sense really, but now that the afternoon is gone and things have calmed down, my morning in Oral Communications was not so bad after all, but I surely felt strange. I wanted to cry. What a day today turned out to be, huh? Not so god after all! Arrrrg! Oh well, it was just a “not so good day”.
I have written so much today, I have to admit. This is now the last entry of thiis day, too. I am pretty much talked out now. It is going to be 9 p.m. Sunday night here in about fifteen minutes or so and so bed is just around the corner from now. I plan on going to be at 9:30 p.m. so I get a good night’s sleep/rest. Emilee has already warned about what time it is. Good ol’ kity she is most of the time. Right now I just finished watching Right on Track on the Disney Channel starring Beverley Mitchell and Brie Larson. Tonight’s show was the third time I watched the program this entire weekend. It was that good and interesting. Erica and Courtney Enders had found drag racing, boys and mens sport, fun and exciting and now a quarter of drag racing for juniors are girls. FANTASTIC! Well, good night everyone. God bless. Tomorrow..how many entries will I have? I do not have to go to school on Tuesdays and Thursdays anymore. Bye for now!
The way my week was, tomorrow I go back to school, and then next week, I will be missing classes on Wednesday due to the fact my family will bury Grandpa Clarence in Redgranite, WI. I feel so bored right now. I am going back to school tomorrow…YES! Even though I can not wait for school to resume, I have to wait. I have written a lot today…that is why I have written so many entries today. after today…the entries will die down a few. It won’t be that many, lol. what a life!!!
Now that I am awake and wondering why the dream even came about, but how that dream came about was from the Elizabeth Smart case being on the back of my mind and the guy in my dream resembled the abductor. I must have been thinking of the Elizabeth ordeal as well as the 14 year old girl who went with this one guy who is dangerous. Sometimes I have BAD dreams and I HaTE them too,
When it comes to dreams or nightmares, I can not always figure them out or why they are happening. But I do remember this dream I had last night. It was bad enough to be a nightmare but it wasn’t a nightmare really, just a bad dream that woke up me after the worst was over. I do not know what it was about exactly except the fact I was being abducted from a cabin where I was camping. I remember people being there and going in and out of the cabin’s porch and I remember a boy running out to go play with friends. I do not know where this cabin was but the area of the cabin reminded me of camp during Camp Meeting. I was visiting with my parents from AR at this cabin because they were there. As people came and went in the cabin, I saw a man I did not recognize approach the cabin and walk right hold a hand over my mouth and pushing me against the porch walls which were of white plaster board. As this man held a hand over my mouth and pushed me against the wall, a white hood was pulled tightly around my neck as if the person was tying the hood for a little girl. The man told me to go to sleep annd I fought the idea of going to sleep as I got droopy feeling wash over me. The man took his hand off my mouth so I tried to scream but no sound came out. The boy came back into the cabin and saw what was going on and the man just tried to push me out of the cabin porch door. The next thing I remember is my dad holding me and taking off the hood and saying to me ‘it’s alrught now, he’s gone and arrested.” I finally found my voice and screamed and cried – a delayed reaction to what happened. As my dad held me, the little boy looked at me and said that the man was being taken away from the cabin and arrested for good because there was a warrant for his arrest for kidnapping other girls and that I was lucky to be alive because the other girls were not so lucky. As my dad lifted me from the floor, everyone walked out of the cabin, locked it up, and put everything in the vehicle, and we drove away never to see the man alive again as we drove to another cabin just a mile down the path, I wake up from the dream
I have waitied for a few days after all the rain and gloomy weather for the sun to come out. It did and now my spirits are picking up again. i hate rainy weather and now winter is over. GOOD! Gotta get clean up for returning back to school tomorrow and with my period, I feel so dirty and grimy and gross. Bath time has arrived. Later days…
I am NOT ashamed to be a WOMAN but I HATE the monthly periods that come with being a woman. This month I do anyway. It began Thursday evening which makes my anxiiety attack that I had all day long more understandable. I had an anxiety attack that went out of control so it controlled me instead of me controlling it. I HATE when that happens! Anyway the worst is over but I still have my dratted period. Thank goodness it is almost done for the month and I do not have to deal with it next week when I will be away for two days burying my Grandpa Clarence up north in Redgranite next to Grandma Fox who died in 1997. I hated the mood I was in for the past couple of days, too. My moods were horrible and depressing. I can get so moody and out of sync with everything with me, about, and for me. I am GLAD school resumes tomorrow after last weeks Spring Break. I actually did quite the opposite of what I was going to do…I did not open one textbook this Spring Break except for today. I got busy and bored at the same time. I even had cabin fever most of the week as well as my dratty period which started on Thursday. Like I said before, I am glad that it is almost over for this month. I had lots of trouble dealing with it this month. That is the tough part of being a woman at times. I even slept on the fouton last night pulled out as a bed because I did not want to sleep in my room and open the bedroom door to go inside. The bed is back into a couch today, though, and it was very easy to pull back into a couch this morning. Right arm and hand must be getting stronger now-a-days. Why in the world did I even write about such a personal thing as my period? I needed to vent today and have been needing to do so since last Sunday after speaking to my sister-in-law and brother — more or less I did not get a word in edgewise with my sister-in-law but she too had the right to vent and I was just the sounding board as well as the person she was not very happy with at the time. I wonder what it will be like when I call my brother in April or May — the next time I call…but since I can only speculate, there is no use putting in my opinion. All I can say is that it was a time for venting everywhere I turned lately. Right now Scooby Doo is on and Tim Conway is special guest star today. Boy, it is only 11 a.m. now! Time is going by terribly slow. I wannt to sleep all day long like I practically did Friday morning. That dratted period!! What a life I am living and boy am I pitying myself today. HORRIBLE! Ok, I vented. Am I happy now? NO! I have to get ready for school… More later…bye!
As much as I have taken the time to change the look of my diary, I really like the change a lot. I just needed a change somewhere in my life this weekend and I was so glad to change the look of my diary. It is Springy and pretty enough. I will not change it for a while now anyway. It is too pretty! Thanks Britani for liking it!
I did it again! I had to change the look of my diary again. It is now Spring, as I said yesterday, and I felt a little springy last night even though I was tired by the time I changed the look. Anyway, I did it and I do not know when I will change it again – if you know what I mean. i hhave been going through the world of change in my life again the past couple of days. In fact, I wanted to lay in bed all day long and be lazy but that is NOT going to happen today, I begin school again tomorrow after Spring Break as it ended as of Friday afternoon for me by noon anyway. I have the window open in my livingroom now with the Spring fresh air coming in and Emilee is fascinated with the birds outside. Good kitty!! It is not totally quiet at this time thank goodness! School resumes tomorrow, YES! I know that I must be crazy wanting to go to school but I do like going and doing ALL that I am capable of doing and doing my best when times get tough or rough. School is GREAT! Ok, I LOVE school and I AM NOT going to give up now or EVER!
