Not tonight…

Posted on January 28, 2003 by ksmiley



For some reason I am not in the mood to write much of anything tonight. I am tired tonight. Not very talkative except to a few people. I have briefly spoken to one of my friends om line tonight at MSN but not much was said tonight. I just wanted her to know that I just wanted to say hello and that I was thinking of her today and always. I already spoke to my Nellie Mom eearlier today and this evening. Not very talkativve. Just wanting to be quiet tonight. GOod night

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Opinion Only

Posted on January 27, 2003 by ksmiley



I was talking to my mom earlier about something that I read earlier in the day. She wonders why people would even bother writing their every thought on the internet for the whole world to see when Satan knows everything and can see what each person feels and so on. Satan can then torment or know what that person has a conflict with. Here I am, one of those people who writes my thoughts in a very personal or general way for the whole world to see. That is her opinion. It is not because of my mom’s opinion about writing in a public journal, but I am already very careful about what I write and say as I write. Satan is a good deceiver yes. That I agree about. I find writing my thoughts, personal or not, a way of relieving stress and discomfort on my mind even though it may take a couple of days to get over the problem. Sometimes I wonder how people can write what they write. Some things are, to me, so personal that the whole world does not need to know. Someone talking about having sex or wanting to have sex is really personal – something I do not care to read or write about but everyone is different. I am one person who likes to write about personal experiences that happen around me. i am such an emotional person at times especially when my hormones are going whacky.

Speaking of emotional…I got emotional today. I told my friend Mark about what I felt when I spoke to her mother briefly. His mother’s tone of voice sounded like I had no right calling her when I asked if Mark was there. She said, “He just left.” The way she said it seemed to me I had no reason to call him there if he had his own cell phone. I called him then at his cell phone and I told him how I felt. He understood how I felt but I am no longer gping to call his parents unless I really have to from now on. I know I may have taken her tone of voice wrong but it surely sounded like she did not want me calling her son there. For goodness sakes, Mark lives under his parents roof and does need to abide by their rules to some point, but controling his every move?? No way! I do not think his parents would do that but from talking to Mark today his mother has gotten control of his life almost entirely. My goodness!!! Oh well, just like everything else in my life, I will get over it! I always do. What a life I live sometimes…BORING! “SMILE”

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A Look At My Day So Far

Posted on January 27, 2003 by ksmiley



My day so far has been very good. I got up at 6:45 a.m. instead of 6:30 a.m. being my usual time on a school day. I jumped out of bed and got dressed immediately, took my medication, brushed my hair, put on my shoes, got my school things ready to go, put on my coat with a hood and mittens, grabbed my keys, walked out with my school books, walked out the door, locked up, and went for the bus at the corner. For a Monday, it surely did not feel like a maniac Monday whatsoever because of my positive attitude right when I woke up. I got to school shortly before 8 a.m., said hello to one of the paid staff, went down to get a bite to eat, came back up to put my coat and school things in a specific room and went to talk to one of my instructors about an assigniment due Wednesday and got that cleared up immediately. Then I decided to get right to work on other school things and attended my 9 a.m. and 10 a.m. classes with enthusiasm that seems to be a big plus for me. I am now in the CALS lab playing around at break on the computer writing in my journal here. I do not have class until 1 p.m. and after class I plan to go home immediately and maybe, if my friend Nana Lea is able to help me, we might run an errand to the credit union for me. So much has happened today even though this is not the end of my day but only in the mid of my day. Pretty much written before hand here is what my day is like for school. It has been wonderful so far. YES! For a Monday it has been WONDERFUL!

Unless I am too tired to get on line at home, I will plan to be back writing more.

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Good night

Posted on January 26, 2003 by ksmiley



I am saying good night now. I have said what I wanted to say all day long and now my night is ending on a good note. I will be back tomorrow.

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My Day

Posted on January 26, 2003 by ksmiley



My day has been very good. I had comppany for a while that was a planned meeting but that is all the company I am planning on having. I took a bath a while ago and now waiting for the Murder, She Wrote to begin at 3 p.m.. I am now chating with one of my friends at AIM and having a good time chatting. That’ll end soon though. My day is going well now. More later…

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A New Day Began Hours Ago

Posted on January 26, 2003 by ksmiley



My day started at 7:30 a.m. this morning and then a nap followed shortly afterward. I was awakened to a phone call from my Nana Lea and have been up since 9:30 a.m. I guess I was not ready to get up at 7:30 a.m.! LOL The weather is once again bitter cold outdoors and I have been told earlier that the weather is to warm up tomorrow again and be up in the 20s. I will believe it when I feel the temperature change when I go outdoors to catch the bus in the morning to go to school. After this morning’s short nap, I do feel refreshed but yet a little tired. My friend Greg invited me to watch the Superbowl Game at 5 p.m. tonight but I think I am going to watch The Jersey Marathon on the Disney Channel until 3 p.m. and then watch Murder, She Wrote from 3 p.m. to bed time. I do not know if I want to watch the football game today. My day began three hours ago. I am still in my pajamas and my Nana Lea is coming up sometime today – unless she does not make it – to drop off some cookies she had made the 0ther day. I think I am going to be very strict of who comes to my place today. I really do not want any company today for some reason, and I am NOT going out in the bitter cold today. I think my feety jammies are perfect for this day. I am comfy and warm and not willing to get dressed so quickly. The only time I will be getting undressed and dressed again is when I take a bath or shower later today before 3 p.m. if I get the wants to before Murder, She Wrote starts its marathon on A & E. I really do not have any major plans to go anywhere, company is going to be light today, and my world is full of rest and I HAVE TO GET SOME STUDYIND DONE too!

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Life in General Now

Posted on January 25, 2003 by ksmiley



I know I said I was tired and it seems late, but I am not yet writing my thoughts yet, LOL. With the time being before 9 p.m. here in Wisconsin, the time alone seems later than that. My phone has not rang since dinnertime so that is a nice quietness. The toilet, mentioned earlier today, is no longer running every five minutes for five seconds so it’s quiet in my apartment now. With the toilet running in the past, the quietness is almost deafening – if that makes sense right now. It doesn’t really make any sense to me at this time because I am so tired. Maybe now with the toilet being silent now and working properly, I can get the sleep I have somewhat missed in the past three weeks and soon I can get caught with the sleep lost – I hope so anyway. SOmetimes I wonder why in the world I even write in a diary…when my life is so boring and not full of activity much. i am such a lazy person when it comes to school not being in session. I lead such a boring life now-a-days. I am not feeling sorry for myself whatsoever…I am telling nothing but the truth. Anything I write in a diary for myself or for other readers can be understood or misunderstood. I take a risk at writing my personal thoughts here. Anyway, I have been here at DD since March of 2000 I believe – now I am not sure of the timing and I plan on staying here. I really like it here very much. My life is not always boring – it does have some neat moments in time too. I am like everyone else who writes at DD. It is a special and unique place to be away from reality for a minute or two or more even though We share our personal thougohts and feelings from day to day and what happened to us in real life. This is our place to escape to and that’s great.

Tonight, again ordering pizza for supper, I had gotten my pizza with an attitude. The driver, a young kid, had an attitude when he came up to give me my pizza. Honestly, I felt that I did not owe him one penny of my money for the pizza with his attitude. He knocked at my door. I handed him my money and asked him if the amount was correct and he practically shoved the pizza into my hands, counted the money, and walked away. He did not even tell me the amount of the pizza, what size the pizza was or what was on it that I had asked for, and didi not even answer my question to the correct amount. Honestly I thought he was rude and nasty so I called Dominoes and complained to the manager about the situation and I learned…get this…that the kid who delivered my pizza did have an attitude and I did not do anything wrong to get such an attitude. The kid himself had an unprofessional attitude. I hope I never see this kid at my door again when I order pizza from Dominoes again. I will not stop ordering from Dominoes though. Their Dots, a donut like sweet is so good and highly recommended for eating.

Right now I am listening to The System on Court TV and it sounds like a good hourly program. “For Better or For Worse” is the title of the hourly story. I doubt it very much, though, I will be able to stay up late to watch the whole thing since I am so tired. The story sounds so good and worth the watch as long as I am awake. I am going to go for now and write later. Anyway Emilee is getting too close to my water glass, LOL See you later…

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Getting Tired

Posted on January 25, 2003 by ksmiley



Ok, this is so unlike me on a Saturday night. I am tired and ready for bed ow at 8:30 p.m.. I can not even stay up late even on a Saturday night! I am not good company when I am tired so I am glad I do not have any visitors or company at all now. Sabbath ended about three and a half hours about 5 p.m. and I was beginning to feel tired then. Ever since I started school, I began to find myself getting into a pattern that is a good sleeping pattern but NOT being able to stay up late on a Saturday night is so very rediculous to this brain of mine. I do not know what to think, LOL. Oh well. If I need my sleep, I need my sleep in order to feel refreshed and awake for any day given to me. I am getting tired and I am not sure if I am able to stay up late to chat with my “sister” Maria at 10 p.m.. Probably not and I should not even try. I think I will e-mail her now regarding that chat tonight. I do not want her to think I will stand her up. I sent her a mobile service message. Now with that done, I can feel comfortable and go to bed knowing that I tried to send her a note in regards to our chat tonight. “YAWN” Time for bed now.

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No More Running Toilet!

Posted on January 25, 2003 by ksmiley



Up until last night my toilet was constantly running – making its noise as if Casper the Friendly Ghost was visiting my home and staying uninvited. The maintance man did everything he could do to fix the toliet from running three weeks ago but it was all trial and error. Even the outside manager from Milton came by to check it out but it did not work either. The toilet still ran constantly every five minutes for five seconds. Nellie Mom, as a manager taking care of a tenant problem, called someone who could possibly help fix the situation, and this someone did come and take a look. As he looked that the toilet, he told me what was wrong and why the toilet was running often, and said that the flap needed to be replaced and the flap put in was not the right flap in the first place. Later the “plumber” came back with a new flap and put it in and it fixed the problem almost immediately but it did do some running for a couple of hours on top of the hour but now it is fixed and my toilet is now silent and Casper left – FINALLY! Casper may be a friendly ghost but his welcome was becoming annoying and unwelcome.

My dinner will be here shortly so I will go for now. More later…I will be back then since it iS Saturday night.

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Time to Write

Posted on January 24, 2003 by ksmiley



I have found the time to write tonight just before 8 p.m.. It has been a wonderful day all day long even though it has been very cold the past couple of days. I tried calling my friend Janie this afternoon and found that her telephone is being checked for trouble and it is a working number and for me to call back later. What a bummer. I know that really means her number has been disconnected for reasons her phone not being available at the moment. Her life right now is in a rocky situation financially. We need to pray for her. She has been physically unable to do some things without having a lot of pain in her joints do to arthritis and such. Please pray for her. I am usually not here on Sabbath time but I am in need to write something for the night before retiring for the night. I have had a good week at school and now my school week is over with for two days. A weekend free. YES! I can takek this time and take a break from studying until after sundown tomorrow evening about 5 p.m. My mind is on schoolwork even to thisi moment, LOL No wonder my brain is tired out so early in the afternoon early evening, LOL

As I sit here typing my entry for the night I have looked down at my keyboard and noticed that the D on the key is fading away. Good thing I know the keys on the keyboard. I have used this keyboard to its full potential for the past year and two months now. I am beginning to see the N wearing off its key too. I am so rough with my things! LOL As long as my keyboard is working and my computer is fine, why get something new when it does not need to be replaced.

I need to go for now. Good night!

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